Dalam Kasut Saya

BERSIH

2011-07-06T13:23:00.007+08:00

I wanna live in peaceful malaysia like the way it was..like the way it always be.

I don't care if it is bersih ke kotor ke korup ke..for i know all these shenanigan is all politics bullshit. Tak payah la nak cakap independent without being flagged under whatsoever party.

And who is Ambiga anyway? Suka betul org kita ni ikut2. Kang ckp suka ikut2 langsung tak pikir kang marah. Now THINK...sape yg paling untung daripada semua ni?

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Pembuat t-shirt kuning tu jgk la yg untung.Haha.

No. Seriously, think...if there's chaos..who will be smiling and who will be suffer? Perarakan (haram or not) will lead to chaos..and God knows if we failed to prevent it from getting bigger and bigger..1 thing lead to another (like during 13 May), domino effects will take place. Where do you think the politicians, the leader, the government or even Ambiga herself will be if chaos happen? Yeah..fly away. They have property outside Malaysia..tonnes of money. People like you and me and ofkos askar2 and polis2 la jadi korban. In the end, we the commoners and polis/askar pulak berperang sesama sendiri where as the one who initiate lari sudaa.

Politicians make a lot of money from their job..be it in umno ke pas ke. Both..yg beza cuma volume lah kan. Yes they do...jgn tak caya ye. That's why they really laparrr sgt to get to the top. Except maybe for Nik Aziz (him only..not his party people or anak beranak)..my kelantanese friends said that rumah dia sgt bersederhana. Menang ke kalah ke masa pilihanraya..they already have their position..which come with money. Nampak mcm ditindas kan ade yg sorang selalu bikin havoc tu...but his money..his property..kali 10000000x kot gaji kita2 yg got peanuts je ni. The leader ntah2 bertepuk tampar je coffee drinking kat belakang..tapi jiwa ikut2 kat bawah2 ni...sampai taknak sembahyang kat masjid tu lah kalo puak satu lg ade..yg bergaduh2 atas jln pun ade. What gives wei?

Nak compare dgn negara lain yg katanye transparent & kebebasan bersuara tu? Have you been there? Like REALLY be in the community, bukannye duk government quarters, or terkurung dalam university campus or berjalan ikut travel agent?? Mix with the people. They too have a lot of complaints here and there like us. Ke nak compare dgn Indon yg bebas & cukup suka perarakan tu? Rakyat dia pun berjuta2 cari makan sini..baik sgtlah perarakan in men-voice out n menyelesaika masalah then? Or go to the country that is less fortunate than us. Eating out of garbage bin (or in India..grab the food out of tourist hand!)bcoz yg kaya makin kaya yg miskin takde ape nak makan. You'll be glad Malaysian people are obese.

And government pun being too defensive buat roadblock merata2. Jalan jam and polis kena maki. And what with people in Twitter tweeting with hashtag kltu (KL Traffic Updates) calling police as penguin lah, smurf lah..cari duit raya lah. If kena saman tu padanlah sape suruh u langgar peraturan kan. Not that aku ikut peraturan..penah ade 7 saman sbb speeding =) Come on people, they just do their job..if they don't jaga traffic in the morning at Jelatek..I'll be late to the office tau. And not to mention bulan puasa, and the lot of them are Muslim. Do you want to do their job then if u pandai sgt???

Now jalan jam merata2..tambah lak keje kat the famous Jalan Tun Razak.

Just my 2 cents..as a person yg favorite place in the world ialah pantai dan gunung (but on the other hand, love shoes, clothes and accessories at Pavilion..hihi), I do appreciate peacefulness.

Now tell me again, what is BERSIH?

Please be noted that both pakatan or barisan won't get my vote this year.

note: my brother plans to stock up food in case of chaos. Better be ready =)

Money Honey

2011-06-29T18:24:00.002+08:00

Just come back from looong travel : for work. It's branches audit month. Really kechiwa with Malaysian Hospitality flight tu..if rajin can up my experience on flight Sandakan-KL yg sgt lama travel time nye..terasa mcm outstesen ke Perth pulak.

Travel for work requires money, though kita ade draw advance, ade perkara tak disangka2 jadi contohnye hotel tak terima LOU so u have to fork out money from your own pocket right there n then masa nak checkout. There, credit card comes in handy lah. While menunggu duit claim masuk (hence, nak bt claim pun xde masa ni) merasalahh aku mkn pasir ataupun makan free suh org belanja. Meanwhile, perkara yg memerlukan duit adelah byk...sakit kepala aku. Pls, murah rezeki duit masuk dr jln tak disangka2 pls!

1. Loan sudah approve..tp duit downpayment mcm tak cukup lg jek. Loan ape? Jeng jeng jeng...nnt dah dpt baru update.

2. I need a new backpack! I have the big one (45+10 litre) and small (race) one. I'm so need yg in the middle..24-28 litre ke. Masa audit for 2-3 days, come back to KL then off again 2-3 day, aku bwk bag Targus laptop tu. Adehhh sakit bahu. Need Deuter jgk. And i might go for travel again in September. Short vacay and backpack sgt penting.

3. Flight to Kuching for Rainforest World Music Festival terpaksa di burn...kerana faktor duit (dan cuti). Uwaaaaaa....Takpe, pujuk2 hati kita pi next year. Instead, pi teater kt Matic : Mak Dara Nyonya.

4. Camera rosak! Only use twice : In India & Sabah. Gampang punye Samsu(e)ng! Hantar to HQ tech dia bole cakap masuk AIR (hence warranty void)? Wei takat sejuk2 kena salji kat Manali tu pun bole rosak ke? I'm going to bring the case up to tribunal pengguna if I may..marah betul ni. Meanwhile, I need to buy a new camera jgk la kan. Better get a NIKON or CANON and please jgn beli kt Fotokem dah. They are not helping when things like warranty claim happen.

Banyak kan nak guna duit. Please la application for scholarship on MyBrain15 tu dapat..so that I don't have to find another RM3,500 for study fee next semester in September.

note: maybe it's time to look for another job. from small talk with fellow colleague, we can easily offered (not demand) 7k basic for 6 yrs experience. if money does matters lahh

Update Berpusing-pusing Kereta Hijau

2011-06-22T16:48:00.003+08:00

Why nak update blog kena ade title? Saya sungguh kompius sbb saya suka lari drpd tajuk karangan n campur sume mende.

Ini adelah perkara yg terjadi dan bermain di fikiran semenjak dua menjak ni:

1. aku perasan yg aku sgt janji palsu kalo dlm blog. Ape yg aku promise nk up tak penahnye aku up. Eg: Backpacking trip to Brunei and India.

2. Majlis melenggang perut Tikah diadakan last Sabtu. Ooo takdelah macam tahyul baling2 kelapa ke ape. Bidan cuma betulkan kedudukan baby dalam perut dia & yg terlebih meriahnya adalah majlis makan2 dgn makanan yg tak habis2. Yelah Tikah kawin dgn family yg bisnes katering.

3. Abah dah mula kena penyakit gaot. Tapi yelah org tua, degilnye..mende tak bole mkn tu la dia teringin sgt nak makan. Pastu takut aku marah..sanggup dia sarung jgk kasut (pakcik ni menyemat skek..pi mana2 pun nak pakai kasut sarung) tu walaupun kaki dia sakit gile. Nak buktikan yg dia makan udang n daging, tapi dia ok je.

4. Masa pegi audit ke Melaka, I realized why I'm still here at this company eventhough I can't stand sivaji the boss, the favoritism, the culture and perkara2 merapu yg lain yg biasa ye ade dlm GLC. I love the job. I love meeting all the pelabur..tgk pakcik tua naik motor buruk bank in duit sket jek tp dalam account wahh byk drpd acc aku. To meet them n talk to them, and can actually feel how high they look at us, really soften me. Serving the nation, yeah.

5. Interest rate untuk myvi baru adelah 3.2%. Kita pun run spreadsheet lah kan. Harga myvi premium baru (abt 50k) monthly payment adelah lebih rendah singgit dari membayar current myvi hijau yg dipakai skang ni.Hmmmmmm

reminder: no more coffee please

2011-06-13T00:48:00.004+08:00

I'm testing to blog from BB.if this entry is up,then it works la kan.

Tadi I can't sleep.become hyperactive, tweeting, fb-ing, watsapp n calling..ngacau org. Jyeah on calling. Ade this particular man that I call on n off n him pun vice versa. Promise will blog abt him sometime bcoz he is a very special man, personally to me. Nahh its not abt love. I'm 30 and lesson learned that LOVE is merely a 4 letters word. Nothing more, nothing less. Exactly what I tweet just now. Takde maknanye kerana chenta..tu mainan bdk hingusan jek..chewahh.Someday,I'm gonna settle down n be super loyal. And I don't want to forget this man. So I'm gonna write abt him.Later.

Eh byk lak cite.Anyway..I figured that this hyper comes from a few-too-many-cup-of-coffee. Nak stay awake n bertenaga for road trip to a fren wedding lah td ni.Make my otak running but left my body exhausted. And here I am, cuba blog on BB sbg cubaan nak tido.

And now I realize esok Monday rupanya. Ingatkan esk cuti lg..dem.

Almost Famous

2011-06-09T17:53:00.007+08:00

Pagi tadi I was listening to fly.fm on my way to work since CD player sejak minggu lepas decide nak bersara awal. Tekan2 tak kuar bunyik. Demmm stuck CD Zee Avi aku dalam tu. The topic was about feng shui and they invite joey yap of http://www.joeyyap.com So I surf the site and did the "Plot Bazi Profiling". Turn out that I'm a performer that in a nutshell is a attention seeker, loves to look glam and be around people. Hmm...(so me?) On the positive side, a performer can be the best (in career specially) if it has something to do with communication and connecting with people. Keje-keje seperti entertainer, public relations, artis dan stewardess adelah seswai! Artis tak bleh blah la kot..suara stok karaoke pon nak meletop gegendang telinga org dgr. Stewardess ade harapan skek..takkanlah nk nk pilih GRO lak kan? Ops.

When I was a little primary girl..cikgu will give a card that requires you to fill in your ambition. As usual la bdk letak all the boring, familiar occupation like doctor, lawyer, police and teacher. I put some of it too..untill darjah 3 ke darjah 4 aku letak "peramugari". Fascinated with malaysia airlines iklan kat tv ye. The next year I put "peragawati" which I thought it is like "staff nurse" in nursing career. Kira peramugari dah naik pangkat la nih. Confirm masa tu cikgu dah guling2 gelakkan aku..aku je yg xtau kan.

Then after form 5, aku berangann nak glemer ni. Maklumla mak abah org kampung je...anak dara tergedik2 nak merasa life mcm Chiaki (drama Jepun masa kecik) kan? Sekali tgk requirement : 5 ft 4". Demmm melepas aku. I was 158cm at that time..mane cukup. Masa ni dah pi KL la masuk Asasi..culture shock skek berangan nak bebas di awan biru.

Later I realize that..I still thot that peragawati is same like peramugari. Kita kan panggil peragawati as "model" kan. 5 ft 4" is requirement for peragawati lah! Now tengok peramugari specially on AirAsia alahai...ketot2nye..tinggi lg aku kot.

Sekian career berangan saya sebagai peramugari. Lagipun sekarang "alignment" dah lari. Mau senget kapal terbang. Hihi

Outstesen Drama

2011-06-06T17:08:00.003+08:00

Aku baru balik dari buat 'conference' kat meja rakan sekerja.
Hati panas mulut pun laju..haha.

My work requires me to travel..to our branches in Malaysia. And my boss ade hobi suka mengirim beli itu ini. Tadi sebelum dia balik keje sempat dia ckp;

"U audit Sandakan kan? I nak order ikan masin & cashew nut. Kat sana murahhh..pasar dekat je dgn hotel you"

Aku ni cuba la mengelak ckp aku bwk backpack je..as usual, I prefer to travel light. Dia bole ckp..owh it's ok, you can ask staff at branch to pack for you..letak dlm kotak..senang bawak".

and there goes the story of how lavish Sandakan with seafood and even to pack fresh fish dalam kotak putih tu. Ikan bilis, ikan masin, udang, sotong etc. Siap cite pasal amplang. Ala...kopok ikan bulat2 tu. Cekedis pun teringin.

Adoi! Sume tu kan kt Tawau pun ade..kt KK pun ade..kat aku jgk yg ko order. And this is not the first time ok..everytime aku ke Sabah..Lepas ni pls...I tanak audit Sabah branches dah.

For me, travel for work specially audit requires a lot of resting time..I prefer spend my non-working time kat bilik (tu pun sambil siapkan report)..sight-seeing and menerai local foods. And usually org yg nak mengirim pun akan ckp "kalo u sempat la.." or "kalau boleh laa". Kita yg dgr ni pun rasa dgn ikhlas hatinye nak beli, kan.

Besides, I don't think there's a biggg difference in ikan masin/ikan bilis price in Sandakan compare to KL right? And is it worth the effort to bring it all here..with bag full of audit documents..beza price rm1 jek?

See, some people will clearly understand why I prefer to travel with backpack..not bag tarik AF tu..even for work. Because travel as light as possible and it's hassle free. Lainlah kalo travel by car..nak pesan byk mane pun xpe..bknnye aku kena angkut bwk naik flight. I can just ignore and tipu ckp tak sempat beli...tapi, bulan ni ade appraisal and she's the boss. Dilemaaaa aku! Tak dapat bonus raya kang.

Sekian luahan rasa seorang staff picisan. Bye, I nak pi Carrefour beli ikan bilis, ikan masin. Kahkahkahkahhhh

Kurangkan Gula Dalam Makanan/ Minuman..Lebihkan Gula Dalam Senyuman

2011-06-01T16:33:00.004+08:00

It's been a while since the last update..bz with exam.
Now exam over and realized that my badan membesar bagaikan juara.
wallaweyyy..70 kg! Konfem gajah duduk!

Haa..ni la org kelantan slalu kata "Kuak blaja ke lapa la" (kuat belajar kan lapar la). Asal bukak buku lapar..pastu p makan jap, lepas tu bukak buku..lps tu ngantuk pulak..terus tido. Study group pun bt kt San Fransisco Pizza & Steakhouse (Wangsa Maju) yg sedap2 makanannye tu. Salahkan the long exam period!!

So now i'm back on exercise and health conscious mood.Has subscribed gym membership at Element Gym, G Tower..sebelah ofis so rajin skek nk pi. See if can shed at least 5kg (weight prior to exam) or even better if can shed 10kg (weight prior to 1st surgery circa 2009). Ambitious lebey nampaknye. And on food...Subway sandwiches and air suam adelah mesti! Makanan lain PANTANG..pantang tengok. hehe.

Support healthy food!

Haaaa...ado? Hanya di Pahang =)

11 restoran tawar diskaun jika pesan minuman kurang gula
01/06/2011 1:33pm

KUANTAN 1 Jun – Sebelas buah restoran di sekitar Kuantan dan Pekan menyahut seruan kerajaan dengan menyertai kempen “Kurang Gula, Kurang Belanja” bagi mengajak dan mendidik orang ramai mengamalkan cara hidup sihat.

Timbalan Pengarah Pejabat Kementerian Perdagangan Dalam Negeri, Koperasi Dan Kepenggunaan Pahang, Alwi Abdul Hamid berkata, kempen yang dilancarkan Menteri Perdagangan Dalam Negeri, Koperasi Dan Kepenggunaan Datuk Seri Ismail Sabri Yaakob pada 13 Mei lepas itu, dijangka disertai lebih banyak lagi restoran di seluruh Pahang.

"Kempen itu akan diperluaskan ke restoran lain di negeri ini minggu depan dan kita harap pengusaha restoran akan menjayakannya,” katanya kepada pemberita selepas melancarkan kempen itu di Restoran Taj di sini hari ini.

Alwi berkata, kempen itu membolehkan pengguna menikmati diskaun 10 sen daripada restoran terlibat sekiranya mereka meminta kandungan gula dikurangkan dalam minuman yang dipesan. - Bernama

Student Bekerjaya Mencari Duit Bayar Yuran

2011-05-04T18:34:00.007+08:00

My room is soooo not conducive to study. Clothes are scattered dalam bakul kain (ni yg basuh sendiri) and in white-laundry bag (yg hantar p dobi..tp gile pemalas nk susun dalam almari). And there's a comfortable, fluffy bed yg memanggil2 sepasang mata suh tido je. Haiya...Nak study kat library pulak..i've been there for only 1 hour lepas tu dah gelabah mencari jalan keluar.

The past 2 months was very bz indeed. Bz berjalan2..hihi. And now I really should realized that i am not a writer, never!..tp berangan nak ade blog. Nak update sebulan sekali pun payah. Tapi takpe..sesedap nafsu lah..kalo nak update kita update, bole.

Now I'm in exam month. Realized that I'm much more pemalas than last year. Exam lg 2,3 hari pun tak rasa takut. Malam exam barulah adrenaline high and semangat study. Ingatkan amek master adelah perubahan perangai from degree level...tidak ye sama jek.

I've been asked a lot from people since aku start study ni. Why? How? What?

Perkara pertama yg pikir 2x nak sambung belajar ni sebab masalah duit, yuran mahal..nak2 kat UM kan. Memang pun..my course about 15k. Ko ingat aku ade duit byk tu?? Jgn panik ketika melihat fee ye. Tgk yg kecik je dulu..i.e. fee per semester. My course should be 5k per semester..panik jgk kan tgk. Tapi sbbkan kita ni bekerja and diketahui keupayaan study yg malas (aku la tu) kita amek sikit subjek je and drag the semester. Cth: in my case aku amek 3 subjek je per semester instead of 5 and drag semester jd 4 instead of 3. So byr skek je la around RM3k++.

Takde duit jgk?? xpe..swipe kedit kad dulu pun bole. Pastu simpan resit. Claim account 2 EPF pulak. EPF proses cpt..less than 2 weeks duit dah msk account. Basicly, kita tak kuarkan duit poket pun.

Tp ade jgk kan yg sayang duit EPF tu. Nak draw bt byr PTPTN dulu katanye nama dh kena blacklist xle p shopping kt S'pore. Ok2..xpe, ade cara lain cari duit study. Khas utk org bekerja mcm kita ni. Mintak scholarship! Ade program bwh MOHE yg baru diannounce tahun lepas utk menjana transformasi negara..chewahhh. MyBrain15 namanye. More info tgk sinih

https://www.mohe.gov.my/MyBrain15/index_mymaster.php

Aku dah mintak last April..tatau lah dpt ke tak. Tp ramai coursemate yg dah dpt. Nanti kalo dpt..fund direct masuk kt universiti & universiti akan refund blk ape yg kita dah byr. Tp scholarship ni tak byk la RM10k jek..yg lain tambah sendiri. Jadi le kan.

Perkara kedua ialah xde masa study..specially bila amek course yg tak sama dgn current work..struggle la skek. Sebenarnye bole curi2 masa study tu yg penting kena pandai arrange time & jgn malas study. Untuk org yg timing asyik distracted dgn menda lain spt shopping n berjalan2 & pemalas mcm aku ni..haruslah stop menulis and STUDY SKRANG sebab Ahad ni exam!

Baiklah! Studyyy!!!

ps: wish me luck ya!

Pelan Rancangan Jangka Panjang

2011-03-08T17:13:00.010+08:00

*amek mood pembentangan bajet skek*

Was introduced to ofismate's blog (tak close..pandang2 hai2 je) by another ofismate (yg ni close..rakan segosip kental!). This girl is really ambitious, really intelligent and determine with her career & future, also keen to chase her dream job. Her perancangan hidup precise, she even tracked her daily expenses..which akhirnye kegigihannya membuahkan hasil gituu

Tetiba rasa inspired and positive. I was thinking like i should started taking my Master earlier, i should move from this company earlier, should menukar bidang keje earlier when i dh start lost interest etc etc. I'm too laid back..take 1-working-day at a time sgt..and akhirnye, i'm too complacent with my current condition..it did pays the bills every month & give me a good sum of bonus every end of the year anyway..kan. But i did feel the 'me' few years back was missing. What am i doing nowww? I am seriously demotivated and pemalas.I let assignments done very last minit, keje ofis pun asal siap suda (if im perfecting it pun tetap wont satisfy kan, kena marah summore), i didn't save much money and worst of all im sitting on my lazy ass..i let my body grow FAT! *perempuan gemok emo*

And today, i realized that i did double payment for AirAsia ticket..psl system M2U down. Tu pun sbb nak tengok mende lain sebenarnye barulah bukak transaction history tu. Punyelah i didn't track where my money goes. Bila balance tinggal sket i just pikir.."owhh i must have use it, iskk boros aku nih". This is the second time. Previously fee study for second sem which cost me more than 3k. Bole aku tak perasan double payment with that much money tu. Ni bkn sbb duit banyak sampai tak perasan ye..duit sgt lah hampeh.Gile punye pempuan.

So sungguh bersemangat today to start planning. For expenses; to-do-list; and future-planning-list...ok termasuk 'Things To Do Before Mati' First with the expenses. I asked dear Puan Actuarist yang sangat terer dalam perihal duit & math ni her spreadsheet (covering debt, daily expenses & saving).I'd tailored it to my liking and will started fresh on 1st April *ps: lagipun April is my birthday!*. Bulan ni kenot..duit dah abes beli flight tickets & accommodation for family vacation at KK (sape suruh volunteer nak support) and gf's wedding at Medan (wiiii!tak sabar!). So we''ll see if the tracking-expenses-thing work for me ye next month!

Then the to-do-list and future planning.

1. Submit kwsp account 2 withdrawal for pendidikan (bonus dah announce, should do now!)
2. update resume
3. submit MyBrain15 scholarship (owh,kena cari the lost result exam sem 1!)
4. planner for debt reduction (have the plan in my mind for a very long time, tp tak write it..so aku pun tak follow langsung plan it..asyik spend je sesuka hati)
5. start do literature study for thesis.
6. walk around the block EVERY MORNING
7. waxing & facial. it's been a while -_- hihi. please spend some Saturdays to pamper yourself.and to call Dell for the skrin laptop yg rosak,kemas bilik, kemas workstation & hantar laundry ke dobi. Nak hantar laundry pun malas yek...

ok, if i continue, the list will never stop. I WILL keep the list updated (have bought a small book for it!) n actually DO IT! Tetapi can't expect so beria2 buat everything in a flash la kan..kena kena ISTIQAMAH (toodiaa!), buat sket2..but consistently =). Sekian perjanjian syaitooon!
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Btw, last month pi backpacking in Brunei and in India..nak put the experience in this blog tp tak buat2 kan. Ok will put that in the list too!

Abis tengok movie, lari2 kuar nak terkench

2011-01-21T14:52:00.007+08:00

Tajuk di atas merupakan perasaan sebenar penulis selepas menonton Khurafat. Sekian.

Ok sambung la cite sket. I went to watch Khurafat at TGV Wangsa Walk with a gf.Yang dianya tutup mata suh aku tgk & cite balik kat dia sambil mulut dia tercarut2 dalam bahasa Sarawak akibat berkali-kali terkejut sepanjang muvi. Lps tu ade la scene yg waktu malam nye punyelah panjang..tak tahan dgn terkejut-kejut sambil tahan napas menahan seram (ko paham tak ni? kalo seram kan kita automatik mcm ter-stop tarik napas dgn degupan jantung..usihh penat ok), aku pun ikut sama tutup mata. Lps tu masing2 tanya 'wei tadi ape wei..?" ceh.

Part angkat mayat jatuh gaung tgh2 malam buta ni membuatkan nafas berenti 5 saat

Suasana dalam wayang dipenuhi jeritan nyaring, then disusuli dgn gelak2. Kelakar pulak rasa bila ramai2 menjerit.Sampai last barulah kita tau nape hantu tu haunted life diorang ni. Moral of the story: Jauhilah mende2 khurafat, nanti mati jatuh gaung walaupun dah tobat ;p

I think I've been watching Malay movies kat cinema agak beberapa kali since last year. Rasa tak rugi pulak. Our movies are improving!

Sila tgk Khurafat. Bwk kawan tgk ramai2 sket,kalo sorang tutup mata sorang lg bole teman tgk!

Hapdet

2011-01-12T11:55:00.010+08:00

Hectic month: December dah berlalu. Here's an update on December.

On health

Operation untuk remove appendix (rupanye masuk hospital hari tu mmg ade apendix, tp sbb tebal..tak nampak bila scan. lemak aku ke yg tebal sgt tu?) dan breast lump dah selamat dijalankan on 17 December. Sebulan lah aku duk susah hati about the breast lump..sampailah dah operate and doktor bagitau result lump yg dikeluarkan tu..barulah aku lega. Konfem bukan cancer.

To ladies, check your breast regularly...check with knowledge. Selama ni memang lah aku rasa ade lump kat belah kiri, but I thought muscle ke and normal lah breast pempuan ade lump due to our menstrual cycle kan. Untill one day aku pi massage sebab demam time malam lama tak baik2..badan pun sakit2. Kakak yg massage tu rajin lak pi pegang belah tepi breast and she insist that it's not normal, p la check. Kebetulan lak Sabtu tu aku ade appointment dgn gynea (ni lagi satu penyakit tak hilang2 since the past 2 years), so terus la p buat ultrasound, and later refer to specialist. Masa buat ultrasound tu doktor pempuan, tapi punyelah takde empathy and budi bahasa dgn pesakit dia boleh ckp "ok it's big, I'll refer you to breast surgeon to remove it". Ofkos la aku ni terperanjat kan..breast tu..tak kawin lagi, mcm2 la kita fikir. Then bila aku tanya lg dia jwb yelahh just remove it lahh (sambil buat muka wateve). Then blah. Lembik kaki aku, nurse yg papah kuar bilik..patutnye aku tunggu lab report kuar, tp aku balik terus sbb dah nk menangis kt situ (kontrol ayu tetap ye), aku ckp hantar je lah report tu kt doktor.

Bila kita sakit,dpt doktor sebok nak bedah je ni, better seek 2nd opinion. The surgeon I met was kind, a Muslim doktor. He delivered the same news, immediate surgery should be done..tp cara dia ckp and he keep saying, insyaallah it's just a lump..it's just small incision and your breast won't reduce size. Barulah tak scary kan bunyinye.

Masa tu, my brother and sister's wedding lagi 2 minggu and ade exam masa yg sama. Aku mintak pospon sampai lepas exam. Doktor marah la takut apendix pecah, tp aku degil jgk. Sebbaik xde ape2. Tapi sementara sebulan menunggu tarikh operation tu, sebulan jgklah aku tak senang hati..takut pun ade, dah la rahsia dari family kan, suka2 hati je.

Now, rasa lebih sihat. Perut aku pun dah jarang kembung2 and dah xde heart-burn and scar kat breast pun kecik sgt..dalam 4 cm. skang doktor dah x payah jahit, dia pakai gam je kot..so scar just 1 line je, xde lah teruk. The surgeon pun baiknye hati siap bg gel to reduce scar..tp company kurang baik hati, tak cover lak gel tu kenalah bayar sendiri.

Bila sakit ni, macam2 perangai org dan perangai sendiri yang kita nampak.

Perangai sendiri: reality that life is soo short. Terus insaf jap, and fikir "what if..". End up amek insurans, booking air tickets and buat passport ;p Masa sakit jgk, positive attitude penting..mula2 downlah lah jgk, seminggu lah tak lalu makan, tak lena tido..asal nak pejam mata je menangis..masa ni org advice ape pun tak nak dengar, aku ni hah yg menanggung..bknnye kau, senangla kau ckp. Then lama2 terimalah hakikat and motivate la diri sendiri. If it is cancer, at least I know when I'm suppose to die..at least sempat buat preparation dunia akhirat kan, it is indeed a blessing in disguise.

Perangai orang: ade jugak org yg ckp "laa...masuk hospital lg kau nih.." "isk..mcm2 la kau ni." Takde sape yg mintak nak sakit. Takde sape yg seronok2 masuk hospital. Ingatbest ke kena operate, nak sedar dari ubat bius tu punyelah seksa and nak menguruskan diri lps operation sgt sakit specially bila operate dekat perut..bersin pun bole menyebabkan air mata mengalir. Sihat tu salah satu nikmat, hargailah.

Ade jugak yg bila kita sakit ni barulah terbukti sejauh mana kasih sayang dia pada kita..jeng jeng jenggg.. Tapi yg paling caring ialah family, tak payah nak cari bukti. Tq mak jaga kakak kt hospital! (atas arahan aku, my brother call my mom after the operation..and she came to KL immediately).

For now, tak sabar nak betul2 baik luka..ade kasut futsal and hiking yg tak berkesempatan lg nak pakai ni.

On family

First week of December, ade big family wedding. Brother and sister kawin serentak. So ade 3 kenduri lah to go, including side ipar ni. Sebbaik la dgn orang Klang..kalo dgn orang Sarawak ke, Johor ke..mau lg pening nak arrange travel.

When my sis done her akad nikah, I can't help but cried, both of us. Dah la lps nikah tu I have to go back to KL sbb esok tu exam, tak dapat tgk dorang naik pelamin. Kitorang beza umur 4 thn, seblom sorang jd gemuk dulu (sape yg gemuk tuu) orang slalu tertukar mana adik mana kakak. She stayed with me since dia habis blajar..and 2 years before kawin, we stayed together, me..adik yg laki and adik pempuan ni. Sebab tu lah rapat tapi gaduh pun slalu la kan. We have the same shirt (lain size), the same bag, the same wallet..ape yg beli sume dia berkenan & vice versa. Kasut pun share. We both has the same obsession in shopping, kalo tau je MNG or Zara sale, rasa menggigil sket badan terus janji jumpa kat KLCC lepas balik keje. We shares most of our things, yg mana bole muat la kan..Masa dia nk pindah umah (duduk dgn laki dia la), jenuh mengasing baju2 termasuk la sepende yg dah bercampur2.."eh tu baju kami la..eh ni baju hang.."

My brother kawin dgn her best friend's little sister. Our family dah kenal since my brother in MRSM..tak sangka pulak jd menantu..kata my mom. Sejak2 dah kawin ni makin bertanggungjawab lak dia jd nye, pastu baik lak dgn aku..kalo tak dulu garang bukan main dgn adik beradik.

I'm glad that my siblings dah kawin dgn spouse yg baik & bole masuk la dgn family..hopefully sampai bila-bilalah kekal baiknye. Aminn.

Btw, I'll be getting 2 anak sedara this year, hohoo productive sgt!

On study

Tgh2 sebok adik2 nak kawin dgn debar2 nak operate ni..time tu lah jgk exam. Dah la ade yang paper deret2..kuchaaa. My sole intention masa register utk sambung belajar adelah sbb for the sake of education, dah bosan keje nak belajar pulak kan. Study is like a careerbreak for me, and I found myself looking forward for the class every week..tak pernah hayat kan rasa rajin nak pi skolah. And I'm so suka with the healthy, encouraging & positive environment around the campus. Rasa happy je sampi I treat the weekends class as a vacation, away from the hypocrite corporate world.

Despite keje ofis, wedding adik2 and debar2 nak operate (and risau duk pikir cancer ke cancer ke..standard tiap2 kali nk lelap mata nangispikir ni ke malam last aku tido kt katil aku), aku study jgk la mengenangkan study pakai duit sendiri..mahal lak tu kan. Baca byk kali pun mcm tak masuk je..kwn2 lak mcm devil's wears charles&keith kan duk ajak melepak melepek je. Dah kuar result rupanya lulus..better than I'm expected, lecturer lupa pakai spek kot. Syukur alhamdulillah.

To those yg panggilan tepon tak dijawab & msg tak balas..minta maaf byk2 okeh. It was during a very difficult time.

Let's count our blessings & be happy! May 2011 brings more love, loyalty and happiness to us (dalam maknanya ni =)

Aduan

2010-11-25T17:44:00.002+08:00

Nak mengadu ni bole?
Nak komplen.

Kenapa badan saya merasa sgt2 letih...belakang saya sakit, bahu (up to neck area) rasa super lenguh macam tgh buat mende stressfull and kepala pun sakit...malam2 demam selsema. Letih mcm in the middle of our company's annual 2-weeks event yg aku terpaksa pegi (tapi suka jumpa pelabur!) tiap2 tahun tu.Ni yg stendet tiap kali balik keje terus baring menelentang...barulah rs rest bahu and belakang. Dah tak comfy nak tido meniarap (I usually sleep on my stomach).

Nak baring menelentang mcm starfish kat ofis bole?

Northshore babes

2010-11-18T09:06:00.019+08:00

Sometimes in 2006, when North Shore still a hit series in StarWorld, me with a bunch of gfs went to Tioman Island..berangan lah itu Oahu, Hawaii kan.

We went there naik bas ekspress from KL - Mersing, via Bukit Putus. If that time kes bas terbalik lah brek tak makan lah berleluasa..sumpahhhh aku x naik bas tau. From jeti Mersing..naik bot lah. And we stayed at Paya..a boat-ride away from Tioman, but it's a very nice place. Mandi2 kat laut..then jungle trekking to waterfall. Kat lubuk waterfall tu siap ade ikan keli!

Chalet at Paya Resort..di celah2 pokok bungaaa

Lauk tghari sedang berkeliaran

We planned to have a very light and easy holiday...just mandi & bergolek-golek kat tepi pantai, to get sun-kissed-tan all over our body (tak sedar diri padahal dh mmg kulit cekelat). But turn out, Tioman has a lot to offer, too irresistable to ignore. We get frenly with the beach boys and locals; play beach volley ball in the evening and mencandat sotong at night..and karaoke. Tapi kat pulau pun ade jgk yg mengayat set2 mat rempit kan "Ellow..ellow..kak long..kak long.."

When you go to Tioman, people usually will go snorkel at Taman Laut. Taman Laut sgt cantik, sgt byk colorful fishes, small and big yang xde segan silu bersentuhan sisik dgn kita. Pegang pun dorang tak lari. Just, try to ask your boatman to bring you somewhere else where you can see corals and a biodiversity of hidupan laut. For us, the boatman bring us near to a small island (don't remember the name), where there's a shallow area formed by a big rock..in the middle of oceon. Don't forget to bring bread, the fishes there very kebulur and they will surround you eagerly..like a school of them fishes..ripping that roti out of your hand. A big colorful parrot fish even mencederakan jari aku ..darah2 sikit..trying to grab roti out of my hand.

There's a small island in front of Paya Resort. We went snorkeling around the island for few hours..locals la yg bwk pi ni..aci berenang je pi dari pantai. That was my first time, seing those beautiful corals and life around it..live, not from tv. Rasa mcm ternangis sket masa tu, kena stop sat bukak goggle..lap air mata. The image has been embedded permenantly in my head..the beautiful, amazing colors and movement of the corals, meliuk lentuk..Up untill now, when I went snorkell somewhere else, I still think that what I saw in Tioman is the best. Maybe because feeling I have at the moment, like the warm feeling you have in your heart when you fall in love at the first sight.

I planned to go to Tioman again. It might be not the same as in 2006, but I already missed the place. This time, no aksi bergolek2 di pantai.. dh gantung bikini! Aksi dugong bunting bole =)

The hugry fishes

Small island in front of Paya Resort. Abaikan model itu ye. She's taken and dah bertukar jd makcik gemuk now..hihi

Masa ni Nemo adelah ikan yg agak glemer...No fishes were harm during the scene.

Putih Itu Bersih

2010-11-12T17:59:00.007+08:00

Tapi..perangai tak bape elok...tak friendly langsung.
Nama dia Tok Teh..odd-eyes white Persian.
Maknanye he's not deaf (Persian putih prone to deafness, kecuali yg mata sebelah lain).

Kalo kita kutuk2 dia kan...ckp dia jahat ke...boyot ke..gemok ke..dia buat muka apehal! lps tu nmpk kita je dia blah.

Tak hormat langsung kat tuan rumah.

Sebab2 dibeli : Masa kecik dia comel.Masa ni mata dia dua2 kaler biru.

Doa dan Harapan Saya

2010-11-10T12:40:00.005+08:00

I think..all my body parts are currently gearing up for a big battle, against me.

Just I thought that I can get better, I am hospitalized again last week. This time, something with the abdomen. After scopes & scans..the doctor still have no idea what's going on..the best explanation is gastric ulcer, although he seems not sure if it just a gastric ulcer. I insisted to be discharge and continue working as usual, armed with a month supply of medication.

Right now tummy feel bloated, bila tepuk2 bunyi kembung on the right side, occasional heartburn and annoying pain on the right side. No, it's not appendix..dh scan ok. Tummy pun agak buncit..n senak so lengging comes in handy now (beli kat MNG murah n super selesa RM39).

The hell with diet nasik..perut nampak besar jugak. This morning out of disappointment with test result during follow up with doctor, I drive and bought the best delicacies Wangsa Maju can offer i.e. air jambu batu Pak Chu, MD Putu Bambu (both at Wangsa Melawati) and nasik kerabu (at AU5 sebelah Esso). Yup, during ofis hour. Lantak lah jadi pempuan gemok pun, I don't care anymore.

Now 3 specialist attending me..keep arranging time for appointment with them..sounds terrible rite? It doesn't, really. A part of the annoying feeling of bloated abdomen, I'm great. I still can stomach the occasional pain..it's just that these illness does bring my emotion down. I think, it must be something else that trigger the ilness. The reason actually, why those cysts, gastric and fibroid keep coming back even after being removed and controlled by medication. Is it because of stress?

Right now, I am trying to avoid any hospitalization and operation. Ape pulak company kata..bdk ni asyik sakit la, burden to the company. Dah la bos pun appraisal baru ni bagi rating rendah, mesti management igt..ooo asyik sakit je and under performed. Padahal... (ok, it's not nice to ramble about it here). And proposal for insurance pun kena reject sbb ade operation history. And exam (yg dibayar menggunakan duit sendiri beribu riban itu) and big family wedding coming up early December. I am sooo can't afford to be sick.

I really need to be ok again. To play futsal and masuk hutan again. Missed tido dalam khemah, menggendong beg Deuter merah 45+10, main daun (poker) di tengah2 malam bertemankan unggun api dan setan-setan, makan nasik hangit, and berpura-pura menjadi perempuan yg lemah bila jumpa guide or fellow climbers yg hensem. I missed berak dalam sungai..hahaha.

I hope, really hope and pray that I'll get better. I don't want to be disabled so early in my life. There's loadsa things that I want to do, loadsa places that I want to go, mountain that I want to conquer, loadsa sinful-glorious food that I refuse to give-up, loadsa love that I want to give..aku tak kawen pun lg tau.. and loadsa dosa I want to repent. And I hope by next year I can be off medication and reclaim my ideal body figure. Eceh..I missed dressed-up for a hot date and I missed my baju2 sendat & how good I feel in those.

But I'm mentally and financially (that's why la apply insurance) prepared for the worst. Cuma yg tak prepare ialah workplace & bilik kat umah tu..bersepah2 & things here & there. Keep promising myself to tidy things up, put important thing at 1 place like S&P rumah, docs kete, buku bank, list hutang, and throw anything that I don't want anyone to find out; specially my parents, in case anything bad happen to me. Isykk..macam ade gambar bogel je kan.

And I hope, if the day ever come (bukan hari kematian ye..sbb hari kematian itu amatlah pasti..ini yg x pasti cthnye: sakit), I'll be surrounded by people that I love & care..their appearance can ease the pain. I hope that they can leave their work for a while, and meet me..even for 5 minutes, just to make me convince that they too, love and care about me.

Enough of the emotional stuff. Next entry, will post about places that I have been, will be and berangan2 nak pi. Currently looking for those pictures in my external HD but demm, rosak la pulak. Have to pinjam Anne's copy.

Hope this weekend test will be less sakit & appointment next week doktor tak scary kan aku and I hope the result will be promising and everything gonna be just fine.

Hope that I live long, minimum as per mortality rate for Malaysian women (75) , grow old as wise and healthy as Dr Mahathir (minus the cardiac problem) and wrinkle gracefully like Tun Siti Hasmah (she has the rosiest cheeks!) and blessed with kap ba ra kap alif ta nun..KEBERKATAN.. (mcm salah eja jawi ni). Aminn.

The Happy Me

2010-10-25T13:11:00.004+08:00

I am a happy person.
I am a positive thinker..always be grateful of what I have rather than thinking abt what i don't have.
Ok..I'm a bit poyo here..I talk abt myself kan..but this is not just me saying.

Abt 3 weeks ago, I went to (force to by company) a leadership programme and a part from the module, I received my characteristic test result..(programme conducted by a psychologist). among others, the result says that I'm kind of person who tend to see the glass as half full.

See? I know I am a positive person. When I was little, I believed that Utopia does exist..I still do sometimes.

For those who have known me..might be already tired listening to me.. non-stop talking, tear-jerking laugh (i don't do giggles) and tell you, I can be a bit annoying sometimes. Nak bercakapppp je keje.

But now, for the past few days..I'm losing the 'happy me'. Sometimes, without warning..I have the urgency to cry. When I look at myself in the mirror..I know something not right. I'm pretending that I'm happy. I am not. I know I shouldn't..I can't rid this feeling out of my head. When I went out with my girlfrens, the annoying feelings gone...but when I'm going to the loo, or go to the kitchen to get sumthg to drink..the feeling comes back.Even from the living room, I can hear my girlfrens gigling over some perve jokes.

I know that this feeling will be over..soon. I hope and I pray. 16 November will be the date. Till then, I am trying to be happy, to not to think to much. Whatever the outcome...I will be strong. Only the strong people shall receive 'ujian' from Allah.

Till then..I need to be around people who love & care.
Even it is so hard for some people...but I hope he'll be there when the time comes.

I want to be surrounded by things that I like.
Great food, lovely flowers, cats, the smell of rain, good music and easy-reading books.

I want to see the world. Previously, I have this policy of not going to other countries if I haven't finish with Malaysia. I don't even have international passport. Today I book a ticket to Brunei.

I just want to see the world..the people..the culture..and learn, and appreciate the beautiful world Allah has created for us.

May I be the happy me again. Amin.

Annoyed

2010-10-05T18:09:00.002+08:00

Totally totally annoyed with people.

The corporate slave
The bragging mommies
The PDA couples
The bad customer service
The fucking racist
The people who drive super slow on main roads
And the person who not appreciate Graham Bell's invention

I have this massive workload coming my way. And assignments. Major stress.

Despite the feeling of total annoyance towards people in general & some specifically, and stiff pain on my left shoulder up to my neck (the way my body signaling that I'm in stress), I hit the treadmill and have a good 2km run. Bring E (ecstasy) back to EXERCISE. When I was in deep emotional stress couple of years ago, a good friend suggested that I should run, run fast. Running is a distraction and running can make you sleeping like a baby at night. It work sooo fine I even shed a few kilos!

So I run today. And I will run tomorrow. And the day after tomorrow.

I usually find comfort, a relieve from stress in a tub of Double Dutch Wall's Ice-cream, red-velvet mangnolia cupcakes from Delicious..or just a sinful chocolate cake will do. Or better if I have a pair of comforting arms hugging me. But since "arms" become a total annoyance and sweet-treats don't go along with my flabby tummy..running is a better choice to overcome stress.

Owh btw, have you ever stumble across a legal case in UK called Johnstone vs Blommsbury Health Authority? It is about stress at work and what is your right as an employee.

It is indeed, the title of my assignment to submit this week.
Ohhh crap.When will this STRESS will go away!

Ramadhan 30

2010-09-09T16:45:00.004+08:00

People I met today were super nice.

I went for car service at Segambut..near Dutamas. The workshop run by a Chinese gentleman, Mr. Lim. I complained about I had an accident...steering gegar2, rasa 'berat' and I think my car needs a new break pad.

He checked and said actually no need to change the break pad..it still can be use for up to 3 months. What I need to change is the auto-gear oil..the level so low...that's why I feel 'berat'..gear lambat tukar maa..

And gegar2.. I need to meet a tyre specialist. Mr Lim gave me direction to go to his friend's shop..at Segambut. But Im so not good with direction..if you give me GPS with voice tu pun I can get sesat. He was kind enough to go with me. So we went to a workshop..owned by a good Chinese uncle..Ah Hee namanye..located near bulatan jln Duta. Uncle's verdict was that Im using a cheap tayar (Sime Tyres)..tayar keras that's why la gegar2..he suggest I change the tyres early next year..since bunga tayar ok lg. And he did some alignment & on-wheel balancing. That should be enough till then.

Then I whine about the wipers..how I get blurry vision bila hujan..Im asking about the one that put on display at the workshop. Mr Lim said Im already using an expensive wiper (Honda Civic punye taw), no need to change..he just put some fluid inside the wiper-water-tank (tatau nama dia ape).

Cost: RM84 for the auto-gear oil, RM25 for alignment & on-wheel balancing and free for the wiper-fluid.

Those a two honest mechanics as mechanics (be it Chinese or Malay) usually take advantge on woman..specially yang nampak sgt dumb-blonde mcm aku ni.

Those two gentleman even wish me Hari Raya, lengkap dgn pesanan to drive safely.

Then these anak beranak at the laundry shop. I went to their shop, located at Wangsa Maju Seksyen 5 to send last minute dirty laudry so I don't need to care about sebakul kain baju busuk when I come back from cuti Raya. The mak wish me Hari Raya & pat me on my arm the way a mother would touch her daughter & her son kind enough to carry the load from my car. And it cost me only RM2 per kg..Bape kg xle cite ar..hehe.

When I back to the office, I remember that I didn't topup my 'touch n go' yet, uuuuu Karak & LPT sgt jamm..jgn cari pasal. There're 2 ATMs at our office, one is Mebeng & the other one is Cimbeng. I only have Mebeng card but the only ATM that can operate 'touch n go' transaction was the Cimbeng one. A gentleman at my office who is queing behind me, offer his Cimbeng card & do the transaction for me. That save a lot of energy to go to LRT Ampang Park & topup there. Phewww.

Happy Hari Raya people. Thank you for making my day super smooth.

Goodbye Ramadhan

2010-09-09T13:10:00.008+08:00

The last day of Ramadhan..and tomorrow we will celebrate Aidilfitri.
Ramadhan will leave us..and by permission of Allah, we will meet again next year.

Today, I've sent a text message to a person whom I admire, respect and to some extend..well..err..I can't say it.. (dem!) It's a confession Im struggling with since early 2009, after the operation. The lovely, comfy, warm feelings that I have for a stranger who chased me along Jalan Ampang during loomy, dark February midnite. And how frighten I am, pushing the pedal to the limit..gunning my car, trying to escape..but foolishly stop right near my house.

How that very moment had change me, and him. We had shared loadsa things..but 1 thing that we never ever shares was..our feelings - towards each other. And the phrase "go with the flow" is just lame..an excuse for a person who can't make decision, who is too afraid to lose, who wouldn't want to ruin the sweet moment with hurting-truth. Hence, who can deny this feeling that I have, for I know he might has it too.

Future is uncertain..that is so true. Who would know what life has to offer us in the future. Future is a gamble and a set of probability we can forecast, mitigate the risks that may occur; then work towards it with no guarantee that we can win. But today, is certain..thus, we need to make decision for now, for present moment, for happiness. I am afraid of future and would he be there; for the moment (and I hope for long) to sail the life's adventure together, make mistakes together. Does he wants to be with me or not?

I will miss his writings..those writings that used to make me stop at newspaper stand every morning on my way to work.
I will miss his voice as a commentator (there, I said it right, finally!).
I will miss his passion, his humbleness.
I will miss his ignorance.

I will miss him.

Goodbye Ramadhan.
Goodbye YOU.

Sebab Saya Tak Puasa

2010-09-03T13:58:00.005+08:00

The Morning Call

This conversation between a girl & her fiance..and a kakak yang menyebok psg telinga

Boboy :
(Dengan suara sungguh lemah)
Saya rasa...*cuba mengambil nafas pjg...tp tersekat2*, saya tak dapat puasa lama hari ni..

Gegirl :
Dah kenapa pulak? *cuak*

Boboy :
Penuh taik hidung laa...semalam lupe korek. Ni nak bernapas pun x bole!

Hydrocloric Acid Party

2010-09-03T12:45:00.005+08:00

Org pempuan kan ade off day puasa.
I'm having mine.
Dulu masa kecik kan abah aku selalu suruh makan bila tak bole puasa...dia ckp nanti sakit (masa tu aku ade anemia).

Semalam aku tak makan apa, mkn sama dgn time org puasa.
Asid hidroklorik merembes. Colic attack.
Pelik kan, time puasa ok je tak mkn apa2, siap tak sahur..xde la pulak gastrik.
Tapi bila tak puasa..siaplah berguling-guling sakit perut, senak.
Ade hikmah ye nawaitu saumarhadin an ada i' shahri ramadhana.. tu.

Pagi tadi, dah drive kete hijau (Papajahat dah jadi hijau!) ke KLCC beli yang berikut:
1. Nasi goreng Cold Storage
2. Nestle Luscious Strawberry Yogurt (yg tube besarrr punye!)
3. Gaviscon sachet
4. Actal plus tablet
5. Loreal Elseve Nutri-Gloss conditioner

ok yg no 5 tu takde kaitan.

Td aku telah disalah anggap sbg pemonteng puasa. Eh sori sket k..dari kecik tak penah aku sukati ponteng..mesti mintak izin dulu walau di mana berada. Balik sekolah jalan kaki panas2..tetiba nampak air sirap tgh peluh2 ais terkondensasi. Aku pun merengek2 mintak bukak puasa kat mak aku.Mood dia baik dia katalah..alahh kesiannye, p lah minum..kakak nak air ape, mak buatkan (sambil bukak peti ais amek ais)...

Tapi tu dalam mimpilah.

Realitinye dia bebel2 sambil buat muka so scary. Tapi anak2 tak reti bahasa tetap merengek.

Mak nak bukak.
Mak nak bukak.
Mak nak bukak.

Selang semenet sampai dia bosan dan give-up.

Nak bukak..bukaklah! Nanti time bukak..duduk jauh2!

Yeaaa!! Togok air sirapp! Tak mainlah curi2 togok air paip mcm org lain.

Paling last merengek mintak bukak puasa adalah puasa 2008. Masa tu senang2 hati p Tmn Teruntum dgn adik beradik nak tgk menatang2...sekalinya yarabbi panas! Semua melepek msk kete bukak ekon, pastu sepakat tepon mak ckp nak bukak puasa. Kena maki "hang tu dah umoq berapa???"

Err...sweet 17.

Plus 10 kot...hehe.

Ramadhan kali ni, mak aku dh bg green light kalo kena gastrik lg..bkk je pose tak pyh tahan2. Dia cuak sbb kena jaga aku msk sepital sebulan before puasa sbb gastrik.

Apepun, hari ni birthday mak. Selamat hari lahir yg ke 47 mak!

Mak balas msg: Trima kasih..ingat jgk anak2 mak ni.

Pleaseeee la mak aku sejak join tadarus sempena ramadhan & pakai tudung Ekin ni..ayat nk skema muslimah je.

Cik Baju Ketat

2010-08-24T12:05:00.004+08:00

Morning call selama 45 menet di waktu pagi membuatkan saya merasa amat disayangi...
*euwww*
Ade hikmahnye ye seminggu tak 'souq' sama..seminggu tak jumpa.
Resulting in endorphin merocket tinggi and I feel ecstacy-happy, emotionally stable so performance pun full-blast! Laju je buat keje hari ni..
Adekah kegataian ini akan berkekalan?

ps: Hari ni pakai baju ketat sbb baju keja sume duk kt dobi..xdak keta nk pi ambik mcmana.

Keranamu Papajahat

2010-08-23T10:36:00.007+08:00

Sumthing not right happen.

I feel weaker, my body can't stand the 8 hours working time. Is it because I skip taking vitamins?

I'm super-tired after bukak puasa, like last week, 3 days in a row around 3am I found myself sleeping on the couch at my gfs house, with my working attire on. Ntah masa bila terlena tatau..I didn't cleanse my face, didn't put watever necessary on, didn't take meds & vitamins.

I have dark-circle the size of kungfu panda.

I can fit in my sister's low-rise Levi's jeans. I drop weight, which is good..but I'm not on diet and I ate for the whole Semenanjung during bukak puasa.

I dream abt getting married to my-ex (well, we can consider a casual r'ship for more than a year as bf rite?i x penah declare u..hehe) in white songket. We both doesn't look very happy in the dream.

I dream abt my current having caught in some sort of trouble & in reality, it turns out to be true (ofkos mendapatkan information tu bknnye senang..kena gaduh2 drama air mata dulu). Creepy huh?

I ordered 25 mini-cream cheese frosting-cupcakes last week because I feel like I wanna eat something sweet and 1 is never enough. I gave some to my gfs, and I eat them all by myself.

I did my group assignment last minute (need to email to Lead before 9pm) and I finished it in 1 hour, right before bukak puasa. Then after bukak puasa..I look at it again & I'm quite impressed with my work (ok perasan). But really, Im not that good in writing sumthing intellectual..it took me days to write a simple article..apetah lg assignment. This so not me.

For almost a week, Im dying for hot,bubbling mocha latte from Coffee Bean. It usually chase my stress away.

Is this because Papajahat the Car is away at workshop? Sayalah pempuan ber-career yang berboifren kan kete!

But, pengajaran daripada ketiadaan kereta ialah:

1. public transport in KL are not fully integrated yet..while LRT is awesome (but you need to be gagah n stomach the bad breath in the morning & smelly armpit in the evening lahh) the connecting buses are not full covered all area (seksyen 6 xde bas weih). tambah2 bulan puasa ni, menguji kesabaran sungguh. u need to rely on cabby...which is mahal gilakkk!

2. masa ni lah nak kenal kawan2. those who offers without asking and those who just glad u didn't ask. For me, i believe that those who love & care doesn't need my explanation..they would know and would understand,would come as saviour and angel, as those who really knows me, know that I would be the first to offer help if ade kemampuan lah.

3. jalan pakai high heel sambil mulut sebok bersembang kat talipon semasa berkejar mendapatkan teksi nak pi keje adalah tidak baik untuk kesihatan ye. Pagi tadi aku dah terpeleot masuk lubang..terseliuh kaki. Esok will wear the Nike flat..biarlah x gorjes pon.

4. barulah aku sedar....yg aku adelah minah kekwat apehalll nk suh aku naik bas!

As soon as I get the car, I'll get my steaming hot mocha latte, do facial (muka dah mcm kertas pasir..asyik tido x cuci muka je), and drive to McD for our daily sahur yang dah tergendala sejak seminggu nan lalu.

Lagi 3 hari drama perpisahan dgn Papajahat akan berlalu!

ps: Papajahat ilebu. Janji tak cakap psl Mazda2 dlm kete dah...and I'll keep u forever. Janji xkan jual..it will be inherited as harta pusaka.

She Belongs To The Nature

2010-08-09T16:46:00.008+08:00

Hi there.
I was hospitalize..again, last month. For the same illness. This time around, the pain was unbearable.. I succumbed to painkillers. Asking, begging to be drugged by the doctor & nurses.

But when it's all over..I found myself in an island..so crystal-blue. It's a vacation my friends & I had booked over a year ago. We stay in a guesthouse..rumah air they called it. When you wake up in the morning..a sudden rush of panic strike u for the thought that u are stranded in banjir (flood), but then u realize u are actually in rumah air..in the middle of Celebes sea.

The girls spent the days snorkeling & diving..the best that Mabul Island can offer. The great Sipadan Island, known as the diver's paradise for it's biodiversity and colorful corals only miles away. Because of the illness, I spent my days reading (they have plenty of good books to read there..I got Who's That Girl by Alexandra Potter; chic-lit, the genre I love the most), bermalas2 dalam hammock and as always, be a chatterbox..mingling with the other guests..including one lovely couple from Australia..in their 50s. The wife (Jenny her name, but we called her mummy) cried when we left Mabul as our vacation comes to the end.

In the afternoon, when sun changed it colors from sparky-bright you-barely-can-open-your-eyes to soft orange..we put our pareo on, Teva (perlu ke mention brand ni?) on, and we off to walk..circling the island. There, we walk through the villagers, the Suluk and Bajau Laut. The innocent looking in the eyes of the Bajau's children..some running around barefoot, naked with runny-nose, cheerfully smile at us and say 'hello'. When they saw us holding cameras, they rebut2 circling us and say 'picture!picture!' excitedly. There..we can see that with just a bare touch of civilizations (yes, they have basic infrastructures like mosque and school), the kids having so much fun playing around on those white sands. The kind of happiness we once had when we are children..playing baling selipar & tin..no PS, no computer games no theme park. At least for me. I've grown-up in the middle of FELDA settlement, surrounded by palm-oil trees. All I do all day after formal school & sekolah agama was playing..all sorts of game including typical 'main kawin2'. Each Khamis I'll find excuses not to go to sekolah agama because I wanna watch Gaban =). I grow up to wonderful cartoons on free-tv-channel like Gaban, Suria Baja Hitam, Jem (calling Synergy sambil pegang subang bentuk bintang!), Blue-Blink, and Thundercats. and from time to time, when a van selling books come to the school. I will bring the book list & merengek2 to my Abah..asking him to buy a few book for me. I love to read Siri Salma Hamid (Nancy Drew), Anak-anak Hadi (Hardy Boys), 5 Sekawan, Tidurlah Intan and any books about astronomy. It was so much fun back then.

Looking at those kids, I picture myself about 15-20 years ago. My mind has nothing to worry about, full of plans for tomorrow & Hari Raya only (dapat balik kampung Perak!). All those things about pay-slip, work, boss, career, food, diet, health, tax, family matters, traffic jam, credit cards, personal loan, mortgage, study loan, bf(s), fear of future, fear for the unknown, fear in general....never, crossed my mind. How tranquilizing back then.

It was so awesome to wake in the morning to the sound of splishh splashhh...it's a pair of green-back turtles..swimming playfully on the front deck of the house. and around 10am, when the tides is low enough, you can see clown fish, and many2 other sea creatures playing around the corals just in front of the deck..the owner (Scuba Jeff) called the small marine park as Sesudu Garden.

Then, on my last night there, over the sounds of acoustic guitars (played by the staff), over the laughs and giggles of guests from many countries (Slovenia, Britain, French, United States & Australia) a beautiful 'sea creature'; which is the only Malaysian (and me) on that dinner table, has lured me to watch the full moon together..leaving the drunken guests, leaving my friends worried, strolling around the island. And it must be the spell of the salty breeze, mesmerizing balmy-light from the moon..so famous with the quote 'bagaikan pungguk rindukan bulan', music from the soft wave and maybe, spirit of the island itself..beautiful island, that has left me spellbound, my heart suddenly attached to him, to his journey, to his adventure, to his dream.. like a magic. A stranger that I barely spoke to or interested to even we have been staying at same house for the past 4 days, become familiar to me, so familiar I think I must has known him for years. " Kitak tuk, pandei klaka..manisss jak"

Now, back to reality, life wasn't as pure & honest as one's experienced or even behave on deserted island. Civilization, modernization..has changed people. Beautiful creature shows its colors..bit by bit. I didn't blame it. In this world, I've learnt and I've known that one need to camouflage, need to adapt, sometimes need to shed blood in order to survive...sending worries, thump-thump sounds in the heart of the one who love & care about them.Yes, it's survival. As for me, I always believe the goodness in people. I pray, I hope and I have faith in it. I just don't know how long can I hold on to him, how long my heart can take it. And I just don't know, whether I can fall in love to him..as I am afraid I might not be able to fall out of love when we have to say goodbye. And there's a fine line between faith & denial.

I choose faith.

"During the first period of a man's life the greatest danger is not to take the risk."
~Søren Kierkegaard~

Zombie eh eh eh

2010-05-26T17:22:00.005+08:00

Ok as i type this, the cleaners has already on her vacuum and start buat keje lah while we are still working & talking on the fon. Like..kamonnnn! Bising okeh..kot ye pun efektif bt keje tunggulah abeh ofis hour dulu. See, it is so annoying that i hv to blog (eh..bkn ofis hour aku x abeh lg ka?opss kantoi).

First time ever like after zillion years I tuned to Fly FM this morning on the way to work and they played Zombie. I preferlah bukak mp3 modulator (the most genius invention ever okeh) sbb I can letak sendiri my fave song then cucuk je pakai pendrive. Zombie reminds me of this little girl who sang at jamuan hari raya kat hostel masa lower form dulu. She's only 11 but her voice..mak aihhh..she can pull that song sooo easily mcm nyanyi lagu tepok amai2 jek.

While years (many) later, in a bright, beautiful morning, 1 of the girl's audiance (very, very gorjes one..sila lah percaya) who already late for work, nearly fission her myvi into multiple parts of atom that can create massive destruction, enough to raise eyebrow's orang kete seblah menyebelah (eceh..igt nak meletop ape) in front of simpang 4 jalan ampang with her scaringly high pitch voice trying so hard to sing-along..muka lak ko jgn ckp la..macam org nak berak.

Hmm.Takpe. Jangan give-up. Balik kang cuba lagi nanyi lagu Zombie.

ps: I think Megan Fox not from this planet. She's a zombie. And Rihanna is her ride. She's an autobot. Tgk rambut dia..ready to destroy!

Fighting the Biological Clock

2010-05-25T13:16:00.004+08:00

About a week ago, I went out with this girl...comel lah sgt (muntah darah!) in her early 20s. She asked me what should she start using agar tidak terlewat seblum menjadi kertu. Ek eh..asal ko tanye aku? Oooo mentang2 lah aku 30 thn depan kan? Kan? Kan?

Memandangkan akaq pun dulu2 perasan muka gorjes, takdelah pi letak ape2 kat muka. Agak menyesal di sini. I should start good-skin-regime wayyyy earlier..hmppph (cepat2 cek cermin tgk wrinkles).

Oklah, memandangkan aku mentype ni kt opis time lunch masa semorg p lunch kt KLCC..but I'm so malas nk go out..bole le aku list kan sket2 okeh. Lgpun bos besaq tgh ade..biarlah dia nampak sket..aku ni sbnrnye jenis tak pi lunch...tp sekali2 aku pi balik lambat 15 menet pon ko kecoh pehalll. *emo*

1.
Basic cam biasa lah cleanser, toner & moisturizer. Tapi, apply sunblock jgk, at least SPF20. Kalo malas letak byk mende kat muka, beli moisturizer yg siap ade SPF dah. Kalo malas super mcm aku...beli yg siap ade foundation (tinted moisturizer, BB cream)..sume all-in-one. I pakai SimpliSiti C Bright occay..lps pakai terus muka up sket dr Siti Nurhaliza. Tak caya p lah terai.

2.
Eye cream. Ni sggh la important. 1st sign of aging adalah mata (dan leher..so tiap kali pki moisturizer, letak sket kt leher tau). Banding dgn kawan aku yg dari masa study dh pakai eye cream (iye..ngko lah Anne) memang jauh la bezanya dgn org seusia dia (dgn aku tak..hehe). Pastu letak jgn main tenyeh jek, lightly pat guna ring finger ok. Kenapa ring finger? Sbb it has the weakest strenght. See..in a way signalling that once you put that wedding ring on ur finger...otomatik ko jd lemau, saya yg menurut perintah..baiklah saya cium kaki abg tau.

Ok. Merapu.So pakai eye cream k. Pagi & malam seblom tido.

3.
Night cream. Very crucial sebab skin repairs time malam, time kita tido. Night cream ni semua dah formulated utk repairs..so beli lah cap ape pun ok kat Watson's byk.. And ade variety of added advantage mcm whitening lah, anti wrinkle la.

ps: saya pakai cap Natasya. Best ok.

4.
supplement. Pop lah vitamin C..asyik pop E5 jek..(ops!). Vitamin C good for imune system & skin..x perlulah nak injet vitamin C bila dh kertu nanti. Cari yg time-released..so amek sebijik je sehari dah cukup. some vitamin C difortified dengan appetizer cam vitamin budak2 tu. Tak pepasal debab karang.

Saya amek Usana. Nak order sila contact saya yek! (tetiba promosi)

5.
If rajin, scrub and letak mask once a week. For me, sesungguhnye saya pemalasss...walaupun saya rajin je beli mask yg aci letak je kt muka tu..pantang ade sale je beli. Tu pasal la asal masuk watson's je (padahal nk beli cekelat clorets je kan) bila kuar seplastik barang aku beli. Dah la asal nampak watson's or guardian je mesti nak masuk. Adekah sume pempuan begitu??

so cik ida, 1-3 tu a MUST ok. Yg 4-5 tu added lah. I opt for easier (pemalas) solution : do facial 1 kali sebulan. Muka sendiri pun aku p hantar kedai settlekan. Kt Sentul, RM30 je. Murah tapi best & sgt puas hati. Nak ikut takkk?

Setelah sume persiapan menentang kertu dibuat, if muka still succumb to the curse of time and the force of Newton's Law, added with polution, Chernobyl's disaster, global warming, and asap bas Metro ..siapalah kita nak melawan hukum alam. ecehh. bak kata pakcik karam singh walia (mau disaman nye aku ni kang), kalau muka dah mmg macam Azizah Mahzan (bukan nama sebenar), jangan mimpilah bole bertukar menjadi Angelina Jolie.

Sekian.

April 2010

2010-04-07T18:40:00.003+08:00

Birthday saya minggu depan.

Saya wish nak boipren baru bole tak?

Sekian.

Kami Tanpa Bos

2010-01-19T16:24:00.002+08:00

Hari ni merupakan hari kedua bos serta bos-bos kecik tiada di ofis.

Senyap sunyi ofis. Sesekali terdengar bunyi ketukan key-board dan helaian kertas diselak.

*ngenggg...kwitt...kwitttt* bunyi cenkerik di malam sunyi.

*prettttttt...tet tet tet* tetiba bunyi printer.

Sungguh sunyi. Not even kedengaran bunyi ringtone henfon yang berlagu-lagu..kalo time bos ade bunyi meriah sekali sampai kena sound dan siap rujuk polisi HR, maupun staf berkukkik-kukkik bersembang tak sedar diri kat telefon ofis (aku la tu selalu gosip). Department ni ialah department yang dipenuhi oleh orang yang ceria & bising..tapi kini..? skema sungguh ayat ku.

Pelik la.Kalo bos ade bukan main bising. Bila time lunch pukul 12 lebih je masing-masing mula la menyusup kuar lunch awal...balik lunch pun macam senyap2 pencurik sebab balik lambat. Sape ade gelang kaki memang kantoi la..aku la tu.

Hari ni semua kuar lunch pukul 1, balik on time.

Adekah kami dah jadi macam budak asrama yang suka fly malam2 sebab ade curfew?

Adekah kami jadi teenagers balik yang suka breaking the rules, and bila rules/ruler xde...xde idea la plak ape nak buat?

Masing2 senyap berteleku di cubicle masing2. Adekah dorang buat keje atau tengah update blog macam aku ni *oppss kantoi*

Wargghhh..aku x bley la camni wei...!

Life in COLOR

2010-01-18T12:22:00.002+08:00

New year 2010. Cehhh baru nk update! Aku rs sbb aritu b'lagak kan psl free internet...dh x le masuk you Fairview punye wifi. Cis cis. Kedekut la..

Perasan tak at certain time kita suka certain2 color?? Ke aku sorang??? Contoh kan tahun 2008 (which explain nama blog ni yg dicreate in 2008) I really into emerald green..in fact, i have substantial number of shirt in that color which i'm still wearing up untill now. Org sampai tegur..ko ni pakai baju samaaaa je.

Then 2009 was purple...royal purple to be exact. Sampai tukar housing tepon tuuuu. Sampai nak beli handbag kaler hitam ni..tetap nak unsur2 purple jgk..so lining dalam dia kaler purple. Obses la sgt kan.

Now in 2010, I would tergedik2 bila tgk things in this certain blue...elektric blue ke hapa namanye. Current fav item adalah bangles from Diva. Sukaaaa..

Kalo lah aku ni Kate Moss, kompom aku akan parading around in all items in that color & paint the world in electric blue! But then, aku hanyalah seorang gemok..perasan la ko sorang2 berharu biru. Eh Miss Aquarius, if u r reading this, 'ce tanya kawan ko tu...ape maknanye ni kalo org suka2 tukar kaler every year ni.

Tahun 2010 akan menjadi tahun yg extra bz n 'mencabar' sgt. Semoga mulut ni x lajuuu je menyaun org bila hati telah panas & moga muka ini semakin blur so I can always put my poker face when I'm annoyed. Since tema rambut taun ni ialah kuning (sebbaikk aku tak kaler biru kan) so can have blonde moment anytime I like specially bila nak potong q parking kt Pavillion.Hihi.

That would be enough for an update kan. Let us all, berpadu tenaga dan usaha..together..berdoa semoga my purchase kt Dell itu berjalan lancar...mudah la aku menghapdate dgn laptop comel ku itu di Setabak. Sekian janji palsuku.

Skendeles

2009-12-11T17:33:00.000+08:00

Sekarang ni semorang tengah hangat bercakap pasal rimau sekor ni. Aku pun melompat masuk bandwagon la taknak kalah bergossip. Isk isk...selalu org berskendel ni dengan sorang jek, bini kat rumah dah barai *wupsss* jadi ndak le Encik Rimau ni merasa yang lain pulak. Tapi wawawahhhh...kot ye pun..sampi 10! Poh palehhhh!! *kata org Pahang*..Larat pulok awok ye, makan tongkat ali ke??

Memang dah instinct spesis pemangsa iaitu lelaki, ditambah pulak dia tu adalah rimau kannn (ni apelah bapaknye pilih nama Rimau Kayu ni), hari-hari melantak ikan..tambah-tambah pulak tu ikan kembong (sebab dah beranak 2..hehe). Tetiba teringin lah pulak nak makan salmon. Dah tu nampak pulak ayam melintas..ek eh, goreng pon sodapp ni. Then, tengok iklan McD Prosperity, alangkah sedapnye bege itu. Pastuuu..bole pulak terbau masak tempoyak ikan patin..pergghhh ofkos tak tahannn. Tak ke tekak yang jemu makan ikan *Elin - bukan nama ikan sebenar..hehhh- tak sabo2 nak menerkam sumenye. Aummmm!
eh lapar pulak aku cite pasal menu kegemaran aku ni.

So while pagi tu bercipika-cipiki dengan wifey-nya & beralasan bagai cakap bye sayang i nak pi driving range ni muah muah muahhh, hati dah berbunga girangggg..buffet line sedang menunggu!!!

Lepas dah kantoi (kalo tak eksiden tak kantoilah kan), wifey ni sungguh mithali sedia memaafkan...See tgk pempuan, sangat lembut hati demi sayangkan keluarga. Yang lakinye aka Encik Rimau insap la kunun dengan statement 'I have let my family down and I regret those transgressions with all of my heart'- nye. Cheettt, lelaki tetapppp, tak bole nak setia pada yang satu..if setia pon well..maybe for now, along the way in his life, hati akan teralih jua..what with man and variety bucket KFC ni.
*tetiba jadi feminist*

And how 'bout the skendeles yang 10 (and counting?) itu. Sungguh tabah hati-hati mereka menyimpan rahsia bertahun-tahun lamanye...and rimau tu datang bila lapar jek, bila dah tergolek kenyang..tidaklah dia nak bergolek-golek sekali, bercuddling-cuddling dengan mereka..- ek eh ayat ni buat aku terimagine scene lain lak..hihikss. Bila Encik Rimau kelaparan, aci kol je terusss masuk mengadap perempuan-perempuan ini...macam Domino Pizza gitu, aci kol jek. (ok, pasal makanan kegemaran aku lagi!) Tak ke again, hati pempuan sungguh lembut, mudah je cair.
*feminist lagi sekali*

Maybe the feel of being with someone famous, someone that appear on media everyday and yet segalanya keep hush-hush, add the thrill & excitement of getting scandalous. Blame it to the adrenaline rush that always left us with ultimate euphoria. Like when we were teenagers, sneak-out to meet bf, or dating curik-curik kat dalam kelas lepas prep (sapa tuuu), steal a kiss when nobody's looking..then bila jumpa buat-buat tatau. In this case when this someone-famous masuk tiwi pasal dia menang tournament, and all people start talking about him, you just look at the news and smile, remembering all the moments you had with him...segagah-gagah rimau ni kalah jugak dgn i bila di you-know-where...kata pempuan tu dalam hati. Hmmm..how sweet & sexy.

Sekian.

p/s: Kepada En. Rimau, marilah datang Malaysia, berskendeles dengan saya lak. Datang ajak kengkawan sekali yek. Saya pun pandai jugak muak kalau hari-hari melantak daging En Rimau jek, nak la jugak merasa variety bucket. Rasaiin kau En. Rimau!
*feminist yang taknak kalah*

Note:
Seronok kah being with someone famous ni? Well En. Remy Ishak yang baru single itteww, take-note ye, lepas ni bila kita berjumpa lagi di NZ Garden mahupun IKEA, i janji i akan smile back to you & take the initiative to bertegur-sapa...JHANNNJIIII! I'll put aside life-principle kununnye i tu..i.e. ignore artist and celebrity yang glemer2 (i hate to see the smug-faces.."owhhh- peminat-i- maklumla- i-kan glemer..smbl buat lambaian2 ala Princess Diana") whenever i see one tu for YOU and YOU only ocaayyy. Hihikk..gatai.

Unreliable Nationwide Express- A Promise Delivered??

2009-12-04T00:21:00.000+08:00

Matilahhh meroyan tengah2 malam ni.

*Jam sekarang menunjukkan 12.00 am, Dec 4th,tp aku guna time zone ntah negara mana..jadi lain la timing kat sini*

Significant someone will leave the country tomorrow (err..today!) so I decided to give him a surprise gift...since dia pun suka bagi surprise kat aku dengan tiba-tiba dengar suara dia bercakap..tapi tak nampak orangnye, specially di tengah malam yang gelap..di dalam kereta kaler gelap yang juga bertinted gelap..owwhhh my Gucci..!terkejuttttt I uuuu.. *oppsss mati la aku kalo dia tau ni hihi*, so why not me, as a thoughtful lady, return the favor.

So hari Rabu nan lalu, sesubuh sapi'e (ok..aku tipu, of course lps ofis bukak) aku pun p la ke Nationwide Jalan Ampang. Sengaja la aku pilih Nationwide sebab tertipu dengan tagline dia tu, takpelah bayar lebih sket. Lagipun macam gigih bekerja je Raja Azura, Sheera, Ijoi, Abg-Botak-tatau-nama-dia, Rusdi Ramli (eh ade kan dia dlm cite tu) etc dalam cite Mat Despatch tu keje dgn Nationwide. So aku pun ditch our own Abg Ghozi from PosMalaysia yang selalu menolak troli sambil senyum2 menyapa sume staff ofis ni. Sori la Abg Ghozi...anda tidak diafundi olehku.

Seblom I handed my parcel, aku tanye berkali-kali budak kt kaunter tu bile bole sampai parcel ni. Berkali-kali jugak gegirl tu jawab "Esok kak..kalo tak pagi, petang". Dengan penuh yakin aku pun bayar...isk, mahal okeh. Yelahh kena la ensure sampai on time, gift tu utk diguna masa dia kat sana so kena la delivered prior to his departure. Dah la sehari seblom tu aku dah kerah bf adik aku carikkan gift tu..siap antar ke rumah lagi (hello, kalo dia ni bole hantar dari Klang ke W.Maju dlm masa setengah hari for free, ko Nationwide tak bole ke nak hantar ke Bangsar dalam masa 2 hari & dibayar..kau kenapaaa??? "Express delivery" my @$$*tetiba emo*) sian dia semata-mata nak mengambik hati bakal kakak ipar nih..effort tuh..aku tak effort langsung la kan, duk surf internet pastu order je kt dia suh carik.

Hari ni aku check online barang tarak sampai lagi. aku kol 2,3 kali nih..duk bitau aku mende yang sama "parcel with delivery courier"...ek eh..yang tu baca kat online, aku pun bole cek sendirik la. Sorang customer service ni *Cik Kelly Ng (bukan nama sebenar) even cakap ok lah, I'll called the recipient whether he already receive the parcel or not. And aku pun, whattt?It suppose to be a surprise gift kalo ko kol xde la surprise nye dah..and takat nak kol la kan ko ingat aku ni sangkak sgt ke takde kedit yang hadap sgt ko yang kol dia (hellooo, I pakai postpaid occayyyy *oppsss...emo buat kali kedua*). Bole dia bg idea nak kol..? Kalo takat kau pun nak kompomkan tanya recipient tak perlu lah aku kol kau kan cik Kelly, tu pon aku bole buat. Skang ni aku nak ko cek kat mana lori delivery tu sudah pegi, and contact them, so that they can still deliver to him today, despite over ofis hours, sebab ofis pakcik ni (pakcik ka?) bukak macam 7-eleven. Then aku ckp I'll called her back in 15 mins to check on the status since I don't trust her to return my call lagi dah.

Pastu to my disbelief, Cik Kelly terus tarik key staff pejabat gomen (dulu2..skang tidak lg) "Pukul 6 ofis dah tutup, lagi semenet". Hamboi hamboiiiiiii...! Terus aku pun tarik key Kak Siti *opsss jgn marah ar*, with my most firm and confident voice, topped with standard corporate English vocab..tetiba bagai dirasuk roh cikgu TESL, sebbaik tak slang Americans je, I demand her to update me on the status, again, after 15 mins (which aku bg time la kan dia nak tepon lori tu) or I'll contact her management & I'll go to the press, SEKARANG!. And I had her agreement on that, she promised to call.

Kekwat sgt kan aku. Rasaaaaiinn!

Then after 15 mins aku tepon...tetibaaaa "Pejabat kami telah ditutup. Sila hubungi yadayada.."
Gammmmpang! See...my father always told me a story about a snake & a kelly iaitu: __________ ko isi la tempat kosong tu sendirik..kang kata abah aku racist lak.

Marah ni. Geram ni. Petang tu muka aku terus blushing okeh menahan kemarahan. Habes la ilang segala ilmu awet muda aku..tak bole marah2 nanti cepat tua. Cis cis.

Jaga kau. Lepas minum air kat pantry kasi sejuk sket hati sambil tgk muka kat cermin - mmm, comey gak aku bila blushing naturally ni ..ek eh, aku pun hantar surat komplen kat website Nationwide...and of course ade name dropping..rasaiin kau cik Kelly!

Then aku call la jugak orang itu, tanya ade ke mende sampai for him, mane la tau dah sampai mendenye, buat malu aku je kan mengamuk. There goes la the surprise. Cis. Sempat jugak tu aku mengadu domba.

Aku pun tanye, u bole ke I komplen je kt paper u, sakit lak ati I.
Jangan mengada, katanye.
Aku: *sentap*

So ugutan tinggal ugutan je la ye cik Kelly. Tapi aku sudah tulis di sini dan kat FB...tak lupa jugak jasamu dikenang wahai bibir mungelku yang pi citer kat semorang kat opis. Rasaiiinnn, see.. one disappointed customer can go a loooonnnggg wayyy. Not only Nationwide had ruin my surprise & the parcel would only be delivered to him after he comes back (which would be kurang bermakna dah la..tak touching gittewww), but also failed to explain to me on the delay & be attentive to my calls..which disappoint me the most. Kata customer service then act like one la..ko hengat aku tak tau ke policy&procedures nye, cikai2 pun aku ade pengalaman gak la jd customer service officer.

Gunalah PosMalaysia je uols. Macam2 ada. Mercun pun ada. Hihi.

Despite kekechiwaan ku towards courier service, hari ni jugak aku menerima parcel from PosLaju and CitiLink yang membuatkan aku ceria bagaikan sang suria. Tapi parcel-parcel ni sume aku terima before lunch hour, iaitu sebelum sesi mengamuk. Nantilah ye aku cerita apekah isi dalam parcel tu bila hati dah tak panas & bile dapat curik internet lagi =)

Kami Cuma Mau Tolong?

2009-12-03T17:23:00.000+08:00

Isk isk...En. Along sekarang..dah polis buang sume iklan2 yang ditepek di stesen bas, tiap tepon & tiang2 lain...dorang letak flyers lak kat kete.

Ni flyers lawaa ni. Bermodal la kiranya. And it's not just random public parking lot. Tapi ni parking lot kat ofis, and sume kete diletaknye. Effort betul...

Siap ade disclaimer lagi untuk kakitangan kerajaan dan swasta terpilih sahaja
sounds like a real deal..tapiiii...for sure it's just along.

Okeh aku attached kat sini ya, ada berani call la En Zull tu!

Talian Internet Di Rumah Potong!Potong!Potong!

2009-12-02T20:54:00.000+08:00

You...sekarang suda ada internet la kat umah! Freeee lak tu!

Kesahnya aku telah mencopet unsecured network kt area umah aku ni. Dah le yang aku copet ni network utk students (belakang umah ni ade international school), uskkk uskkk..sungguh pembuli. Nasib la korang internet korang slow mcm siput.

Dulu masa duk dgn kwn2, kitorang pun selalu gak masuk network orang. Nama dia Farah Fatah. Balik keje je terus browse..siap download bagai..Adalah seminggu tu Farah Fatah tak available bila kitorg search network..usskkk bukan main risau kitorang. Mana Farah Fatah ni...Di mana Farah Fatah??? Ek eh, mcm cite Di Mana Joe Jambul lak..alaa..kuiz budak2 kt rtm adelah ms aku skolah rendah dulu...Ok kembali ke cerita asal. Siap pikir dia sakit ke, dah pindah ke, kena culik alien ke. Since umah kitorang ni low density apartment, so we kind of familiar with everyone (even tak tau nama..main hi hi senyum2 je bila selisih) we start to speculate & analyse wajah penghuni umah manakah yang tidak muncul semenjak dua menjak tu. Masa tu lah baru nak menjejak siapakah Farah Fatah. Neighbour yang concern sgt kan kitorg? Yeeee lahhh..padahal sebab nak browse internet, nak ym!

Nota: Sehingga kini kami masih diselubungi misteri..siapakah Farah Fatah. Anda tau?

So when living in my area, full of unsecured network like this, all the agressive marketing by broadband provider would be very irrelevent. Who needs potong!potong!potong! when you can simply bergolek-golek atas katil while makan aiskrim potong (saya suka yg kacang merah!) and browsing for free? ye angkuh bunyinye..sok2 Fairview secured kan network tu baru ko tau!
*cross fingers*

Ehem ehem. Tetiba cite mende yg takde kaitan dgn tajuk di atas. Ever since I start this bersawang blog, I always remind myself to never, ever, burst my heart-out and let anything about my lovelife slips. But.....tak bleh tahan la...hihi.

Persoalannya..kenapa..when I strongly believe that I don't love that significant someone, that this is just us..two strangers get frenly & comfy with each other & sort of go-w-d-flow, get really jealous when he's seeing somebody else. Kenapa?

(ye Ida..silelah gelak..jgn malu2)

Owhhh my Gu(Vin)cci!

2009-11-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

Td masa lunch hour pegilah jalan ke klcc. Skarang tengah year-end sale rupanye.

Kat Vincci, punyelah ramai manusia. Pempuan2 ni siap heret bf, husband dgn anak2 kecik sekali dalam kedai tu. Sebab ade sale. Vincci ni sentiasa je penuh..nape eh? sbb price kot, beli je..sbb xde la mahal sgt pun...mende nak letak kt kaki jek. One thing about ladies, we really can't resist shoes, specially on sales. Seems like we can't get enough of it. Tak cukup shoe rack kt umah..bawah meja ofis pun bersusun, dalam kete lg la bersepah2 kasut (ek eh..tu perangai aku tu..)

I really can't understand why. Eceh. Padahalnye kasut yang ade pun tak terpakai..dah la tu kdg2 beli yang sepesen je sebenarnye..kaler je lain. Rasanye ini ialah satu penyakit. Mcm OCD. Meh bagi nama. Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder : Obsession in Shoes.Bole?

Jadi untuk memenuhi nafsu, aku telah menerai jugak la. Taknak kalah kannn..tgk org ramai2 beli nak beli jgk..kannn. Skang ni aku tgh suka pakai wedges, nmpk tinggi without being terpeleot pakai kasut tinggi..hehe. And jalan bersopan sket, kalo pakai kasut flat je haruslah jalan bersepah2.

Inilah hasil pembaziran duit ye.Ni kasut raya okeh.
tema batik sbb ari ni Khamis..gomen pki baju batik kan.

sila abaikan kaki model yg calar dicakar kucing itu.

Personal War Against Danazol

2009-11-24T12:58:00.000+08:00

Few months back kan aku kena amek Danazol. Force to. And the way my body reacts to it's side effect, was & still is a fighting. I gained more than 3kg just after 1 month consumed it. Skang dah beberapa bulan bule imagine agak macam baby gajah yg cumel gak la. I can't just sit on my fat ass and relax.

I've passed and manage - after terribly broken hearted, the emotional effect of Danozal. The misery and sorrowfulness, the anger, irritating..me (and people around me) done with it - ye kamu yg kt Bangsar tu yg bile I call I asyik garang je dgn u kan..padahal I yg call kan..gatai, dan awek cashier kat Carrefour yg juga kena marah sbb dia kerek..hey aku customer ke kau??? *oppss..diva sgt*, and Aci kt LYC Kuantan sbb mempamerkan harga barang yang salah..aku siap ugut nk bitau Kementerian lagi, dan juga kepada semua pengguna jalan raya sekitar KL & Kuantan yang tidak bersalah ittewww.

Now I braving the battle, to fight an army of cholesterol and fatty-lipids .. to claim my rawwwking body *sila muntah*.

This is WAR!

Bengang sebab baju keje yang baru beli tak muat. Very unflattering white shirt.
Ye..saya tgh poyo..hihi.

Hmmpp??

2009-11-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

Hallamak ape dh jd dgn template mendalah ni? Sesungguhnye aku amat la tidak pandai ye menggodak setting blog ni.

Tp aku tgk layout blog terabai ni tak macam org lain, hati digaru-garu nak tukar.Tp..outttt!

Cik-cik yg belajar tinggi kat sekolah multimedia tu..tamau ke ajar kiteee?

Teheeee...

Gadis Spider

2009-10-19T14:14:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum (sila baca mcm nada Prof Izi hotfm)

Yeee...lama sudah tidak hapdet ye. Ko baca tajuk kt atas tu, itulah konsep blog ni. Konsepnye: menternak sawang di laman sesawang, sambil berkasih sayang di awang-awangan!
*fainted*

I tgh bz uu..kan seblom ni bdn aku meng-apam karena steroid? Ni tgh usaha la nih. Ikut BMI kena turunkan 6.4kg. Cemana tu.

Sedangkan bulan pose & bulan dah tak pose ni kejenye jalan2 cari mkn je, saingan hebat Maria Tunku Sabri nihhh. Nanti ar bile rajin aku post kt sini kedai2 mkn yg sedap tu k..bule la merealisasikan impian nk ade makan-blog.

Baiklah saya mengundur diri dulu...! matilah ayatku kejap i, kejap aku, kejap saya
*sambil pasang harness, siap2 berlatih jadi spider*

lari masuk sarang

Pantang anak cucu Tun Teja

2009-05-21T17:15:00.000+08:00

Sejak aku habes pantang ni kan..ushhh.. pantang tengok; lajuuuuu je aku mentekedarah. Few kilos yang lost masa pantang haritu..jadi berfew-few (indahnye bahasaku..) pulak tambah. Sungguh montox dan seksa badan aku skang ni.

Owh, I'm not having a baby la..choooiiii. I had an emergency operation about 2 months ago & have been on medical leave for 6 weeks. As part of the medication (apparently an RM12k-operation wasn't enough to cure you), I'm prescribed with steroid. One of the long-list of its side effects is my body can’t process fat/cholesterol as efficient as before…ecehh gemok la kan senang citer. As I stare bleakly into the horrid, streroid-filled future, I know I have to do something. *ayat nak drama je

Lepas 2 minggu keje, macam2 plan la aku buat to maintain my weight, as instructed by doctor of course. Exercising, dieting. Exercise tu challenging jugak since I can't do the routine exercise in the gym yet...tak selamat untuk luka bedah tu katanya. So I decided to do stairs. Menara ni ade 40 tingkat, and my office at 30th floor, aku naik la 10 tingkat ke atas & turun balik. Buat slow2 during lunch hour, with sport-shoes on, no rushing..very mild exercise. I can feel my heart beats a little faster, I sweat a bit... Good. Lemak jahat lari & aku pun tak penat. I thought. Dengan gumbira lepas tu aku menyarung kasut ofisku yang tinggi 3 inci tu ke sana sini buat audit.

Esoknyeeee...kakiku sakit macam cilake. Cissss..mild exercise kunun.

And about the dieting plan. Ushh lagi lah..aku siap buat list dlm henfon notes ape mende yang aku nak makan masa pantang dulu...SEKARANG??? Pantang tengok la kan..hahhh..Masa duk pantang kt umah Pahang tu bule le mak aku layankan, jaga makan minum.
Timakasih mak..selamat hari ibu mak =)

Ha...ni nak tunjuk mee bandung muar yang sedap kat KL. Actually aku tak penah smpi muar; taktau la authentic muar cuisine cemane rasanya..but this one is reallllyyy good. Nyum nyum. TRUST me *dengan penuh yakin*

Tengok I makan ni..sila jelesss.

Bizi ni, gigihkan aku gi drive time lunch hour, pastu tapau makan kat ofis jek.

Nama kedai tu pon memang Mee Bandung Muar. Located at Jalan Pahang, sebelah Restoren Haslam..Kiranya kalo dari (from Jalan Tun Razak) Bulatan Pahang tu amek pukul 3 menghala ke Jalan Pahang..terus himpit kiri. Nampak stesen minyak je, terus masuk kiri (simpang just before Tawakal Hospital). Terus nampak dah kedai nye. RM 5.50 ye harganya.

Saat Kamu Mula Memasuki Hidupku

2009-03-05T17:30:00.000+08:00

Ceh..tajuk tak kalah.
Hari tu aku kuar p jalan-jalan. Ade tangan orang tu gatai miang pegi main-main dengan henfon aku. Aku ni cukup pantang la kan orang menggeledah personal things aku cam wallet n henfon..n ape yang ade dalam henbag aku. Ok lelaki sila paham; dalam henbag pempuan mmg serba mak nenek ade..jadi kalo kamu tiba2 terjumpa baby wipes tu jgn la cemas, dia masih bujang n xde baby lg kay.

Disebabkan aku tgh drive, dan aku pun jenis menggelabah mcm cikgu besar bwk volvo lama bila bwk kete, terpaksa la aku relakan henfon aku dinodai di depan mata. Scroll punya scroll, dia telah jumpa nombor pelik dlm notes aku.

"B168821 ni no bilik mana ni?" dia bertanya garang

"No ape..?" aku menjawab sengal

"Halahhh..ni mesti no bilik mana u p checked in ni!" katanya sambil ada berani p hempas henfon aku.

"Oi! Tu no pass sementara ofis i la. I terhegeh2 lmbt msk ofis terpaksa guna taktik buat2 pass tertinggal tau. Tu simpan no tu sbb senang nk update attendance."
kata aku dgn suara memetir mcm Mak Lampir.

Ade jgk yg mati terbunuh malam ni kang...

Lelaki..kau kiijammmm

2009-01-04T17:37:00.000+08:00

Saya tak faham, kenapa lelaki ni, berapa banyak kali kita cakap pun dia tak dengar. Apekah semua mende yang keluar dari mulut perempuan adalah perkara emosional yang tak wajar diendahkan? Saje je nak buat saya merajuk tawww….

Bukannye saya tak cakap. Saya cakap, siap tulis lagi kat order bill tu;

“NO TAUGE”

Tapi kenapa kamu bagi jugak mee kari yang ada tauge?

Kalaulah mee goreng takpe, boleh saya asingkan touge itu satu-satu.

I bole sabar youuu

Ini mee kari, rasa tauge dah contaminated dalam kuah kari itu.

Kenapa lelaki kenapa you dengar cakap I?

You ruin my dinner!

Ni bukan kali pertama I makan kat sini. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, sume kat sini. Dating, flirting, meeting, briefing, fighting, charge bateri laptop pun kat sini.

Rasa nak sangat hentak-hentak kaki, pastu tarik mulut muncung. Tanak pandang muka you dah.

Tapi lelaki itu cumalah waiter kopitiam, yang kalo ditegur cume sengih-sengih.

Kalo saya buat scene kat situ, maunye mee saya diganti dengan mee yang telah di hark…tuii oleh tukang masak.

Dengan muka monyok saya makan.

Perasaannya macam ada orang ketiga yang merosakkan kasih sayang antara mee dengan kuah kari.

Tsk.

Sungguh kijam.

*Masa makan seorang lelaki separuh baya masuk. Gayanya macam baru balik ofis dengan kemeja putih tanpa tie bersinsing lengan. Muka macam kenaaalll….tapi..takkanlah?

Kemudian anak isterinya masuk. Kemudian Ali Bakar masuk. Diikuti Nash ‘tiada lagi kudengar kidungmu’ tu,Bob Lokman, newscaster RTM, lepas tu tak kenal dah sape. Sekarang baru saya ingat siapa lelaki itu.

Kerana lokasi dan convenient parking, kopitiam ini memang selalu jadi meet-up-point. As for me, dekat dengan rumah dan ofis. Tapi takkanlah Menteri Penerangan (sape namanya) pun buat meeting dengan persatuan artis kat sini?

Betullah kata Cik Ecah ofismate saya, tempat ni dah jadi tempat makcik-makcik dan pakcik-pakcik.

Muted New Year

2008-12-31T16:26:00.000+08:00

Sunyi je ofis hari ini. Sayup-sayup kedengaran lagu yg dalam cite Puteri Salju TV3 tuh ntah ape tajuknya dari PC Puan Adik. Ooo..berani ya kamu bila Mem Besar takdek..lupakah saya ini penah kena saun pasal pakai earphone masa keje? Siap saya yang tidak berdusa ini dituduh membawa keyboard sendiri (keyboard canggih ade tempat cucuk-cucuk kuar lagu ooo) dari rumah. I benci tawww..

Baru je Isnin cuti. Esok dah nak cuti lagi. Keje bulan Disember di Malaysia amatlah tak produktif sebab dipenuhi dengan cuti (macam la penah keje kat Jerman). Seronok la tu staff ofis ini menyambut tahun baru, maklumlah slip gaji meriah kan bulan ini. Ehem ehem.

4 tahun dulu tahun baru disambut sunyi, kerana tsunami yang membawa ombak sedih. Masa tu saya tinggal di apartment tinggi dekat Gerbang Darul Ehsan. 26 Disember,10 minit selepas pukul 12 malam, tengah golek-golek depan tv tiba-tiba kepala rasa pening. Rumah saya di tingkat 15 rasa berayun-ayun macam naik bot. Nak roboh ke nak roboh ke? Maklumlah apartment itu beberapa kali masuk sessi Abg Apekejadah Edisi Siasat. Malam tu semua penghuni di 8 blok apartment itu tido kat parking lot macam Bangladesh kena tipu dengan agensi sebab Bomba & Pertahanan Awam tak kasi tido atas rumah.

Setahun lepas tu, tahun baru disambut meriah dengan kehadiran ombak baru versi 'world' dipanggil tsuMawi.

Dan tahun-tahun selepasnya juga disambut meriah dengan tak sedar diri.

Tahun ini saya menyambut sederhana dengan mengikut rombongan Cik Kiah ke Putrajaya (eh, Putrajaya memang takde buat fireworks ke sebab aku duk ralit bersembang sampai tak perasan show abes?)

Tahun ini juga saya membawa diri nun di Mulu sinunnnn. Selamat tinggal doniaaaa!
*Takde-takde. Jangan harap la nak kirim tikar Sarawak.

Sesat Lagi Menyesatkan.

2008-10-14T16:22:00.001+08:00

Entri ini bukan pasal ajaran sesat...(syhttt..jangan sebut kuat-kuat. Nanti Ayah Pin dengar, dia masih hidup dan berada di kalangan kita sebab polis tak dapat tangkap dia lagi. Mungkin dia tengah lepak bersemayam di langit bersama gundik-gundik yang lebih muda.)

Ini pasal saya. Beberapa hari seblom raya, saya gi pusat servis dekat dengan hometown saya. Pegawai bertugas masa tu cakap hari tu last day dorang keje, sebab dia pun sama macam kita jugak nak cuti raya..sian dia.

Ok lah…kata saya. Sebab queue panjang, saya ‘cop’ tempat, pastu saya kata lagi ½ jam saya bawak masuk kete. Saya gi hantar mak dan adik2 saya gi melahu kat shopping complex yang paling baru kat pantai timur (tekaaa?), sebab sian pulak nak suh dorang tunggu kete siap dengan saya kat situ. Lepas siap kete la baru saya join adik2 saya shopping..saya nak beli kasut (lagi).

Lepas drop dorang kat complex tu, saya drive ke pusat servis. Hati saya melonjak girang bila tgk signboard simpang ke Indera Mahkota Uwahhhh, short-cut tak payah lalu jalan besor. Jalannya luas, 2 lane, dan tak sibuk macam jalan kat tepi benteng tuh. Lama saya drive…jalannya macam tak ada penghujung…Iskk..biar betul, sepatutnye 10 menet dah samapi. Pastu saya nampak simpang empat…dia tulis Persimpangan Berlian. Eh jap…asal macam tak lalu pun jalan ni tadi. Hrmm..masuk kiri lah.

Jalan Tun Razak .Ahhh sudoh...ni jalan nak gi ofis saya ni. Takkan terlajak sampai KL kot.
Jalan Tun Ismail .Weihh...saya kat mana ni?

Iskk...ape ek nama jalan pusat servis tu? Alamak...tak tau lak ape alamat dia. Otak saya ligat berfikir. Saya terpandang sticker ’next service’ kat cermin kete..hah, ada hotline auto assist. Cepat2 saya tefon nombor tu. Panggilan saya disambut suara awek yang lemah gemalai..suara tak larat, biasa la tengah puasa kan.

No. 23 Jalan 1M 3/1,
Bandar Indera Mahkota,
25350 Kuantan, Pahang

Kata awek bersuara lemah. Siap dgn poskod. Tak perlu kan..saya bukannye posmen.

Saya bukak tingkap luas-luas..mencari signboard Jalan 1M 3/1. Tak jumpa. Ah..saya nampak Shell. Seperti yang kita sedia maklum, kalau sesat jalan, tanyalah pekerja stesen minyak. Mungkin memang dalam job description dorang tertulis “arif dengan jalan-jalan dalam jarak 50km radius dari stesen minyak ini”.

Okeh, saya mulakan perjalanan sekali lagi. Lepas traffic light masuk kiri...terngiang-ngiang suara budak Shell tadi. Hah, traffic light masuk kiri..yeay..eh asal terus naik fly-over ni? Alamak.

Permatang Badak

Ngeee....teringat lak Badak Berendam bukak pose semalam. Nyum-nyum.

Huh, saya dah tersasar jauh ni. Sapelah Perancang Bandar ni..jgn la buat jalan sehala lepas tu tempat u-turn sikit punye jauh..ni bukan highway weih. Saya dah lemau. Selemau suara Baizura Kahar tengah nanyi lagi Cinta Antara Kita – OST Dunia Baru d Movie dalam mp3 saya.

Saya give-up. Saya berentikan kereta di bawah pokok besar. Saya pasrah. Saya panas dan marah. Saya tenung botol air Kickapoo yang separa penuh dalam kete saya. Hati yang panas kalau disejukkan dengan air Kickapoo ni layan gak. Tapi nanti kena masuk api neraka, lagi panas. Kensel, kensel.

”Awok nok masuk sini ke?”

Terkejut saya dengan sapaan suara serak-serak garau itu. Saya pandang ke kiri. Rupanya saya berenti dekat pos pengawal kawasan perumahan elit di Indera Mahkota. Sangat rare la kan kawasan camtu kat sini. Pak Guard tersenyum ramah.

Saya pun menyatakan tujuan saya. Rupanya tu kawasan industrial yang memang tanda jalan entah ke mana la.

”Awok u-turn depan ni, pastu awok jalan straight je, lepas simpang empat tu tengok alik kanan..nampak ar pusat servis tu, dekat Puspakom. Lipat ar masuk.”

Selepas sejam sengah dan kesesatan 90km, saya sampai akhirnya ke tempat kejadian.

”Hah, kete cik kira masuk pukul 12.30, pukul 4 baru dapat ye..tak boleh reserve tempat cik, kita kira timimg dari kereta masuk”

Kata mamat Pegawai Bertugas tu masa saya bagi kunci kete kat dia. Dengan selamba dia amek kunci kete saya dan blah camtu je sebelum sempat saya saun dia.

"Ya Allah..sesungguhnya aku berpuasaaaa!" kata saya dalam hati.
(menahan marah)

kebaya yang bahaya

2008-09-26T12:05:00.000+08:00

Dari semalam saya tak dpt tido sbb kes baju kebaya saya
(padahal sebab minum kopi byk kt Oldtown Kopitiam masa bukak posa)

Dah amek kat tailor 2 hari, tapi malam tadi baru sempat try.
Biziwizi career women la kunun.
Ngeeeee.... bahu gedebeh, placing pinggang tak kena, kain labuh n longgar tapi pinggang ketat. Sekali pakai macam dugong bunting pon ade.

Baju konvo adik saya makcik ni buat cantik terletak jek, tp asal baju saya disaster?
Owh..baru ingat ari tu saya ngade2 kol makcik tu suh bagi besar sket untuk mengelakkan kejadian kebaya yang bahaya iaitu isi badan yang meronta-ronta nak kuar dari baju yang ketat (mcm kemeja keje saya).
Shesshh..abeh tu takkan nak suh makcik tu betulkan..

" Cik Nah, baju ni longgar sgt la...ote blk bule?" kata saya
"Gedik, aku dah nk blk raya, sape suh ko mandai2 ckp besarkan 1cm la hape lah" kata Cik Nah sambil tgnnya memegang tali tape, bersedia bertindak kiranya saya ada berani nak hentak2 kaki suh ote jgk.

Ngeee...kain tu dah la orang bagi..syg sgt. Sudahnye sepagi ni (setelah saya submit beberapa lai memo kat bos) saya menggoogle carik tailor yang buat alteration. Found 1..loveeee goooogleeeee

Sudah lunch hour. Saya terus saun kakak opismate saya ni ajak g Wangsa Maju carik baju raya ready made. 50 hengget dh dpt selai baju kurung putih yg ayu amat. Dah lepas ni x yah tempah baju dah..beli kat Carrefour jek. Pastu saya beli ciskek yang nyum2 kat Jusco.

"panas ok. nasib baik tak puasa." Kata kakak ofismate saya seraya menghirup hot coffee Dunkin Donut yang dia tapau, masa kete saya shift ke gear N kat traffic light.

Ciss..menyirap je rasa..saya pose. Alamak teringat air sirap, sedapnye...

Nak balik nak balik. Samat ari raya.

ps : tiba2 lagu raya Sepasang Kurung Biru berkumandang. Alahai kebaya biruku..

Pasal Saya

2008-09-17T08:51:00.001+08:00

Saya adalah manusia biasa. Hidup saya pun biasa-biasa. Cerita saya pun biasa-biasa tapi saya exaggerate secukup rasa kasi lemak berkrim sebelum letak dalam blog ini.

Saya ada banyak kasut…macam-macam jenis. Ada mary-jane, slipper, sandal, pump, hiking shoes, mule, peep-toe pump, stiletto, kitten heels, ankle-strap heels, sneakers, sport shoes,seliper jamban...Ada warna biru, merah, hijau katak, sirap bandung; ada yang bau wangi, bacin, masam-masam manis, bau kedai. Jadi kasut tu macam metafora lah untuk macam-macam cerita dalam hidup kan.

Bila saya marah, tak perlulah saya jerit-jerit gedik sambil menumbuk manja dada berbulu ~~bakal-ex-~~bf saya “Put yourself in my shoes!” Walau berapa skala ritcher pon saya hentak-hentak kaki (merajuk) dia takkan paham. Abeh pon dia akan pikir “Shesh minah ni, ape dia igt aku Frodo ke bule muat dlm kasut dia?”

Saya bubble jek link kasuthijau kt gtalk dia, dgn harapan dia memahami. Tp kalo dia lemb jugak, mmg pipinya layak dilempang laju-laju.

Mak saya dah letak nama saya elok-elok, tapi bila org panggil saya tak dengar, dorang panggil saya ‘woi pekak’; ataupon mamat-mamatyg menebeng kat Terminal Makmur, Kuantan selalu panggil saya ‘hai Kak Long’; ataupon org jual insurans call ofis saya dorang panggil saya ‘Puan’; ataupon kalo saya pi Petaling Street cina situ panggil saya ‘Leng loi’ sesekali dorang jerit panggil saya ‘Lancau’ kalo saya tak jadi beli; ataupon kalau saya tgh bercinta bawak kete mcm cikgu besar dorang sekadar bagi hon je kat saya.

Jadi saya fikir takde maknanye saya letak nama saya, nanti korang panggil sesedap rasa jugak.

Saya adalah wanita berkerjaya yang bercita-cita menjadi surirumah jaya. Imelda Marcos merupakan idola saya dan saya sedang berusaha sedaya upaya ke arah itu, nanti di lain masa kita buat lawatan ke ~~Taiwan~~ rak kasut saya untuk menunjukkan kesungguhan saya okeh.

Tujuan saya tulis blog ini sebab saya sangat suka merapu, tapi demi saya nak menunjukkan keterampilan sebagai bakal wanita pertama ala Imelda, saya kena la nampak serius, ayu dan bijak bestari selalu, jadi saya salurkan kemerapuan yang meronta-ronta dalam kepala hangguk saya dalam blog ni.

Sekian, terima kasih.